Absolution II: Redemption
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Final Fantasy VIII › Yaoi - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
12
Views:
849
Reviews:
34
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
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In Which Things are Sweet.
Disclaimer: I own my PS2 and my copy of Final Fantasy VIII. The only characters that are mine are Jane and Aidan.
A/N: Action wise, nothing much is going to happen in this chapter. But it’s probably one of the more important ones in terms of Seifer’s changing mindset; the redemption I’m sure everyone’s hoping will come soon. And the only warning this time is for…romance? Yeah, slight romance.
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m moving on
~ Rascal Flatts – I’m Moving On
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Took Squall long enough to convince Ellone to come here, but she finally agreed and we’re gonna be meeting her tomorrow afternoon. Think he only wants to come with to make sure that I don’t “accidentally” kill or maim her. Hyne, that sounds tempting. Could just bring a knife, slip it between her ribs while nobody’s looking….
But with Squall along, that’s not a possibility.
He’s holding me right now and it feels nice. As much as I call him mine, I’m just as much his for all he’s done. Not sure how he’s been patient enough to deal with the nights when I need to be slapped a few times or the dreams that make me kick out, but Hyne, I appreciate it. And I’m pretty sure I -
“Are you even paying attention to me, Seifer? I’m telling you something important and you’re looking at nothing again,” he asks with a sigh.
I shift to move my arms around him and nip his neck. “I was listening with one ear and disregarding it with the other. Thinking about something I wanna tell you, ‘s all. But you can repeat yourself now, Commander.”
Squall draws in a slow breath and pokes the scar on my face for no apparent reason. “The field exam is probably going to be coming up soon and the instructors are debating how wise it would be to make you squad leader, given your previous record for ignoring orders.” The words “field exam” bring butterflies to life in my stomach that I thought died after my first failure and I nod a little. This’ll be my last try and everyone knows that.
“If I ain’t leader, I can’t guarantee how nice I’ll be to the little twerp that ends up able to give me orders,” I tell him as I shudder at the thought of any of the sixteen or seventeen year olds in my classes being leader. Turned nineteen a couple months ago and there’s no way in hell I’m gonna obey someone younger than me.
He nods, changing his position a little to get more comfortable. “It’s all up to Cid and the instructors in the end. I just get to pick which mission would be suitable for you all and give my input on who makes SeeD afterwards. But I’m fairly confident that your other teammates will be Jane Prescott and Aidan Avery.”
I know of the people he mentions, though they ain’t in any of my classes, and it makes me laugh into his shoulder for a long moment. They want to put me on a team with the two craziest cadets in Garden.
“If I believe rumors, they’re both fucking nuts.”
“Seifer, so are you.”
“Not in the same way as them.” The words I almost said earlier are still in my head and I’m not as scared of thinking or saying them as I used to think I’d be. Damn Squall, he just keeps fucking with my head.
It doesn’t take a lot of effort to lift Squall into my lap, but he arches a brow. Probably thinking it’s weird that I’m kinda clingy tonight. Ain’t my fault I’m nervous about seeing Ellone tomorrow and I wanna keep holding him.
One arm stays around his waist while the other wanders up to brush against his cheek. When he leans into the touch, I know he’s focusing on me and not SeeD shit, so I can talk to him. Well, when the right way to say it comes to me. As far as emotions are concerned, I’m nearly as bad with words as he is.
“I’m in love with you, Squall. Dunno when it happened or even why it did, I just know it. And it scares me to tell ya because I know you kinda suck with emotions sometimes. Just felt like getting it in the open.”
His reaction isn’t what I expect. Squall laughs. He turns to rest his head on my chest and laughs until I get nervous. Did he not expect me to care about him? Have I broken some unspoken Leonhart commandment – Thou shalt not profess feelings for the Icy One?
But then he looks up into my eyes and I sigh with relief because there’s no annoyance or anger there, merely contentment. “You’ve been saying that in your sleep for the past few weeks, Seifer. Was wondering when you’d get the courage to say it when you were awake. And I can’t make too much sense of what I feel for you.
“I care, obviously, but it’s different than it was with Rinoa. It’s like I want the side of you that comes out during sex to be there all the time. I like you telling me what to do because when I’m working, I’m the one in charge and it’s not fun for long periods of time. I like it when you call me ‘pet’ and when you joke about owning me….”
He could have gone on longer, I’m sure, but he doesn’t get the chance when I kiss him hard and cradle the back of his skull. Been thinking about bringing that subject up with him, too, but I was nervous. Doesn’t seem like I had to be, though. Squally wants to be told what to do and to be mine? I think I can make that happen easily enough.
I suck his tongue once before he pulls back and tug on his pendant after he rests against my chest again. “Know what, Squall? I think I’m finally starting to get over all the shit with Ultimecia. Soon as I can talk to Ellone about why she did what she did to me, I’ll probably be able to let all of the bad stuff stay out of my head and think about makin’ SeeD and spending time thinking of new ways to play with you.”
He nods and yawns. I know it’s been a long day, but I didn’t expect him to fall asleep on me. Not that I’m really complaining though. We’ve got important shit to do tomorrow, so I lie him down, curl up next to him, and smile as I drift off.
A/N: Action wise, nothing much is going to happen in this chapter. But it’s probably one of the more important ones in terms of Seifer’s changing mindset; the redemption I’m sure everyone’s hoping will come soon. And the only warning this time is for…romance? Yeah, slight romance.
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m moving on
~ Rascal Flatts – I’m Moving On
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Took Squall long enough to convince Ellone to come here, but she finally agreed and we’re gonna be meeting her tomorrow afternoon. Think he only wants to come with to make sure that I don’t “accidentally” kill or maim her. Hyne, that sounds tempting. Could just bring a knife, slip it between her ribs while nobody’s looking….
But with Squall along, that’s not a possibility.
He’s holding me right now and it feels nice. As much as I call him mine, I’m just as much his for all he’s done. Not sure how he’s been patient enough to deal with the nights when I need to be slapped a few times or the dreams that make me kick out, but Hyne, I appreciate it. And I’m pretty sure I -
“Are you even paying attention to me, Seifer? I’m telling you something important and you’re looking at nothing again,” he asks with a sigh.
I shift to move my arms around him and nip his neck. “I was listening with one ear and disregarding it with the other. Thinking about something I wanna tell you, ‘s all. But you can repeat yourself now, Commander.”
Squall draws in a slow breath and pokes the scar on my face for no apparent reason. “The field exam is probably going to be coming up soon and the instructors are debating how wise it would be to make you squad leader, given your previous record for ignoring orders.” The words “field exam” bring butterflies to life in my stomach that I thought died after my first failure and I nod a little. This’ll be my last try and everyone knows that.
“If I ain’t leader, I can’t guarantee how nice I’ll be to the little twerp that ends up able to give me orders,” I tell him as I shudder at the thought of any of the sixteen or seventeen year olds in my classes being leader. Turned nineteen a couple months ago and there’s no way in hell I’m gonna obey someone younger than me.
He nods, changing his position a little to get more comfortable. “It’s all up to Cid and the instructors in the end. I just get to pick which mission would be suitable for you all and give my input on who makes SeeD afterwards. But I’m fairly confident that your other teammates will be Jane Prescott and Aidan Avery.”
I know of the people he mentions, though they ain’t in any of my classes, and it makes me laugh into his shoulder for a long moment. They want to put me on a team with the two craziest cadets in Garden.
“If I believe rumors, they’re both fucking nuts.”
“Seifer, so are you.”
“Not in the same way as them.” The words I almost said earlier are still in my head and I’m not as scared of thinking or saying them as I used to think I’d be. Damn Squall, he just keeps fucking with my head.
It doesn’t take a lot of effort to lift Squall into my lap, but he arches a brow. Probably thinking it’s weird that I’m kinda clingy tonight. Ain’t my fault I’m nervous about seeing Ellone tomorrow and I wanna keep holding him.
One arm stays around his waist while the other wanders up to brush against his cheek. When he leans into the touch, I know he’s focusing on me and not SeeD shit, so I can talk to him. Well, when the right way to say it comes to me. As far as emotions are concerned, I’m nearly as bad with words as he is.
“I’m in love with you, Squall. Dunno when it happened or even why it did, I just know it. And it scares me to tell ya because I know you kinda suck with emotions sometimes. Just felt like getting it in the open.”
His reaction isn’t what I expect. Squall laughs. He turns to rest his head on my chest and laughs until I get nervous. Did he not expect me to care about him? Have I broken some unspoken Leonhart commandment – Thou shalt not profess feelings for the Icy One?
But then he looks up into my eyes and I sigh with relief because there’s no annoyance or anger there, merely contentment. “You’ve been saying that in your sleep for the past few weeks, Seifer. Was wondering when you’d get the courage to say it when you were awake. And I can’t make too much sense of what I feel for you.
“I care, obviously, but it’s different than it was with Rinoa. It’s like I want the side of you that comes out during sex to be there all the time. I like you telling me what to do because when I’m working, I’m the one in charge and it’s not fun for long periods of time. I like it when you call me ‘pet’ and when you joke about owning me….”
He could have gone on longer, I’m sure, but he doesn’t get the chance when I kiss him hard and cradle the back of his skull. Been thinking about bringing that subject up with him, too, but I was nervous. Doesn’t seem like I had to be, though. Squally wants to be told what to do and to be mine? I think I can make that happen easily enough.
I suck his tongue once before he pulls back and tug on his pendant after he rests against my chest again. “Know what, Squall? I think I’m finally starting to get over all the shit with Ultimecia. Soon as I can talk to Ellone about why she did what she did to me, I’ll probably be able to let all of the bad stuff stay out of my head and think about makin’ SeeD and spending time thinking of new ways to play with you.”
He nods and yawns. I know it’s been a long day, but I didn’t expect him to fall asleep on me. Not that I’m really complaining though. We’ve got important shit to do tomorrow, so I lie him down, curl up next to him, and smile as I drift off.