Insanity
Denial
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Title: Insanity Chapter 2 Denial
Author: Naniris
Rating: R description of violence
Disclaimer: No, not mine
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“…”talking
~…~thoughts
{…}memories
Italics
Scene:
Inside of a room there’s a small group of people. The
fluorescent lighting and plain white walls give a surreal atmosphere, while
four of its six occupants sit uncomfortable waiting for the inquiry to end.
“I can’t take this anymore. You’ve been questioning us for “Calm down, Rinoa. This is for our She took out a remote and pointed it at a screen. On it “Xu, we know this already.” “The point of this debriefing is to see what happened to you “What the fuck is that supposed to mean?” “Calm down” Squall said ~ what’s his problem? We’ve been “Don’t you fucking tell me to calm down. I’m perfectly fine “Mr. Dincht, please sit down. It Zell looked at her and then at the “Me, too. The celebratory ball for our victory is in two weeks “All of you have suffered emotional and psychological “It is a bad dream, since I called them this morning and at “You’ve called them a total of 36 times in the past three “She’s just being a whiny bitch like she always was. Leave “Watch your language, Zell. You “You don’t need to write that report, Ms. With a defeated look on her face, Quistis
the past couple of hours, like we’re some kind of criminals.”
constant crying and her normally cheery disposition seemed to have banished.
“We’ve already told you what happened during time compression, okay and where
we came back. There’s nothing else you need to know.”
historical records.” Commander Xu politely demanded.
“According to what we’ve compiled, after the
with Ultimecia you and your comrades where lost in
time or some kind of dimension. Once you’ve managed to return to this reality,
everyone was found in different parts of the world.”
appeared a map of the world with several yellow dots on it.
and she obviously hasn’t slept for the past few days after their return. “We’ve
explained the situation and filled out more reports than I care to count.
What’s the point of this debriefing?”
all. Kinneas and Tilmitt
arrived at Galbadia and
respectfully without any problems. According to them and several eyewitnesses,
they returned in a state of nostalgia “remembering the good ol’
days before the world got fucked” She quoted from a report she was holding.
“They were happy to return and don’t have any psychological traumas at the
moment.”
gravity-defying bangs were covering his forehead and the paleness of his skin
contrasted with the black bags underneath his eyes. “We don’t have any fucking
traumas ‘k. The only reason why they’re so happy is because they’re morons and
don’t have to think about anything.”
through debriefings before and he usually just falls asleep or something. Maybe
the stress is getting to him. Rinoa been crying all
night and Quistis is working herself to death.
Something’s wrong with them. ~
and I don’t need to be here.” Zell walked towards the
door, but was stopped by Dr. Kadowaki.
will be over soon”
rest of the group. “Fine, but I don’t see the fucking point of this meeting. I
got things to do, you know.”
and I have to buy a dress, shoes, a purse to match, a hairstylist and find a
suit for Squall and…” Rinoa started to babble until
Squall put his hand on her back. Knowing how badly he expressed himself she
knew this was the equivalent to a strong hug and started to sob loudly. “I
need…to call my father…and Zone…and
gods…please” She threw herself on top of the scarred brunette and embraced him
tightly. “Please, don’t leave me…He’ll get me… he…*sobs*…he killed them…he…”
changes since your return. Squall has become more open, which is a good thing,
but the rest have negative behavioral patterns.” The doctor stood pacing from
one person to another. “Rinoa has been overly
emotional and mentions someone killing her loved ones, yet when we question her
on who it is she brushes it off and says it’s just a bad dream.”
lunch and they’re all still alive” Rinoa said in an
attempt to defend herself.
days, Ms. Heartilly. It’s not just a bad dream”
her the fuck alone and let her cry all over Squall if she wants to.” The
tattooed boy replied with a sneer in his face.
were never this hostile before. If you want for this to end quickly stop
interrupting and let them finish.” Quistis said with
a tired voice. “I need to write a report on the food consumption in the Garden
and how our storage capacity will need to double in order to keep up with
demand, so please be quiet so we can all leave soon.”
sleepless nights. You act like it’s your job, but Headmaster Cid has assistants
that do those types of reports. He has already requested several times for you
to take some R & R, yet you need the work so you can focus on something
other than what’s bothering you. Am I correct?”
replied “You’re correct. I am using work as an escape.”
Accepting that you have a problem.” She smiled softly at the blond and then
turned her attention to Zell.
“Hell no, don’t look at me and give your psycho-babble
bullshit. There nothing wrong with me. I just helped save the fucking world and
if I want to act like an asshole, I will. Got that?”
“Mr. Dincht, you’re using anger
and hostility as a cover to hide what you’re really feeling.” Dr.
and Ms. Heartilly, you refuse to admit your problems
or seek comfort. Now, what the three of you have in common is that you were
carried out of battle and taken to somewhere else. None of you have given us
any details of what happened after that and…”
“That’s because nothing did happen, so leave us the fuck
alone and go fuck yourself.” Zell interrupted very
rudely.
“Goddamn it, just shut the fuck up. You’ve been acting like
a jerk and disrespecting anybody that comes in your way as if you were some big
shot.” Squall’s outburst was unexpected and left everyone’s mouth shut. “
Zell’s eyes dimmed and he froze
where he was sitting. ~ Seifer… I’m acting like
proof…it was all a bad dream…yeah, a
hallucination…never happened…nev~
“Dincht, hey Dincht,
snap out of it.” Xu began to shake him until
friends; you can tell us what’s wrong.”
“Nothing’s wrong, Xu. I’m just
tired that’s all. I’m sorry everyone it’s just that I’m tired.”
his anger seems to have gone. “Sorry for being so disrespectful, Dr.
“That’s okay; look we’ve been here long enough for today and
I think we’re all tired. How about we meet tomorrow at
is still a long way ahead of us. So I’ll see you tomorrow then.”
“Bye, Dr. Kadowaki.”
wouldn’t look up.
“Tomorrow at one.” Squall said in his monotone voice.
“I’ll see you later, Kadowaki.
this as quickly as possible.” The Asian woman walked out and headed for the
elevator.
“Bye, Doc and sorry for the outbursts.”
Zell had his head down and was staring at his
sneakers. He turned and looked at the Doctor and gave one of his trademark
grins. “I feel better already, so don’t worry too much about me, ‘k.” He turned
around and ran like the old Zell used to, but
“Ms. Trepe, can you give me a
minute of your time?”
“Of course, Dr. Kadowaki. How may
I help you?” Quistis look at her questioningly
“I’m very worried about your friend, Mr. Dincht.
He’s in denial about what happened to him and whatever it was hurt him deeply.
confide in, yet Zell has no one and I know this may
be too hard for you at a time like this, but can you spend time with him, gain
his trust and help him sort everything out?”
“I’ll do my best, but I wonder, why
did you choose me?”
“You’re strong Ms. Trepe and you
see things for what they really are. Unlike the other two, you accepted it and
will soon recover from your depression. I just want you to help
“Very well. I’ll see you tomorrow then. Have a nice
evening.” Quistis left the room in search of her new
charge. ~ I hope I’m not over my head. ~
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In the Balamb harbor three friends
are out fishing. The day’s sunny and the atmosphere seems jovial as they joke
around and enjoy the sea.
“Great day, ya know?” A hulking
tanned man said in a loud voice. “Perfect for fishing, hanging around and just
enjoying life, ya know?”
“AFFIRMATIVE.” A petite woman responded, her short silver
hair and crimson red eye made her stand out amongst a crowd. “NICE.”
“Stop talking like that, there aren’t any punks around to
scare off, ya know?”
“Of course I do, you idiot.” She kicked him in the shins.
“If I want to talk like that I will, ya know?...Gods
now I’m talking like you.”
A low laugh was heard in the pier. There sat a tall man with
aristocratic features. His hair was shining in the
he watched his posse. It was obvious he was trying not to laugh, but was
incapable of it.
“Just like the old days right; Raijin,
Fujin and me. The old posse and the rest of that
sentimental crap.” He said with a slight smile, but it couldn’t hide the
melancholy in his voice.
A shadow began to form above the harbor. It was huge and
imposing. Seifer smiled in nostalgia upon seeing his
only home pass above him towards its traditional landing spot
~ Just like the old
days, my ass. The Garden didn’t fly before and I was part of the Disciplinary
committee chasing after smalltime delinquents and being the biggest jerk that
school will ever see. I remember that Chicken wuss
would call me...~
But then memories returned to him. His heart rate quickened
and he could feel a cold sweat forming a layer on his skin.
{Rinoa was hiding in a corner. She
was pleading and screaming for him to leave. Caraway, her father, he’s standing
in front of her, holding a gun in one hand and his innards with the other. “No
He shoved his Hyperion through the General while hearing
you”………………}
His vision narrowed into a tunnel and he felt his knees
start to shake.
{“You’re not making any sense, Almasy.
I’ll never be like you” Quistis stood in front of him
unconvinced and as in control as she has ever been.
“Being a sadistic bastard and killer is not in my character
and it’s not in yours either. Don’t let that witch control you, fight
back.”………………}
He couldn’t think, he couldn’t breath.
Everything hurt. His face contorted into a mass of grief and self-hatred.
{“Why am I… still alive? I should…have…bled to death.”
“Because death would be a gift compared to what’s about to
happen to you.” He was holding Zell in his arms and
couldn’t stop himself, he couldn’t st“no…“no…no…no…” ~ I don’t want to, please
yours is such a turn-on” ~ Gods, no…stop me…~}
“No, stop this, anyone stop me, please…stop it”
unsuccessfully for a past memory to change. He held his head trying to block
out images and pleas from the people he cared about most and of how he hurt
them.
{“You shouldn’t be so defiant, my kursed
Knight. I’ll find a way to punish you, that will make the lashings and beatings
seem like karesses from your beloved
“Don’t you dare say his name.”
“Very well. Kontinue
to fight against me, my sweet warrior, I look forward to the day where you’ll
face my true wrath”}
He started to mumble
asking for forgiveness or death or both, until he felt strong arms embrace him
and pull him up while a soothing voice tried to calm him.
“It’s okay, Seifer. No one can
force you to do anything anymore. We’re here, Raijin
and I are here and we won’t let anyone take our friend away.”
a harsh personality. “Let’s take him to our place so he can rest.”
“Good idea, all these nosy bastards are getting on my
nerves, ya know?” Raijin
glared at a small crowd that formed to see the fallen Knight.
“FUCK OFF” A loud and commanding voice came from
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…forgive me, please…”
thoughts and of memories past.
TBC