Power Of Pain

Chapter Two

Squall woke up dizzy, not remembering falling asleep and looked around. His leg ached and realized he must have passed out after cutting himself, the wounds were deep and still bleeding slugishly. Standing up he fell over and grabbed a potion from the night stand, using only enough to stop the blood. He wanted the cuts to stay, as a reminder. A reminder that he was Squall Leonhart, the one to destroy Ultimecia, but couldn't fight his own weak emotions.

Squall sighed and was finally able to stand without staggering too much. He got some fresh cloths and went into the bathroom for a shower. Stripping down he looked at the angry marks that was healed somewhat from the Potion. Shrugging he turned on the water and got in, the cuts stinging from the warmth. 'I need to get out this place.' He thought and washed himself. After getting his skin clean he shut off the water and dried off. He stood naked and opened the medicine cabinet, revealing if full of bottles after bottles of strong pills.

He grabbed one of his valiums and swallowed a few along with various other pills. Squall dressed and went out of the bathroom and to the door. After a few moments he opened it and stepped out. The hall was empty and he walked briskly to the entrance. "Squall?" A voice came behind him and he growled. It was Xu, and she walked up to him. "How are you doing?" She asked. "I'm fine. I need to go." Squall said and tried to walk away, but she grabbed his arm. "Are you alright? Your eyes are so...glassy and red rimmed." Xu examined his face and he growled. "Xu, if you value your life leave me alone."

"What? Squall, don't threaten me." Xu warned and Squall grabbed her chin hard in his hand. "Listen bitch, get out of my way. Now!" Squall pushed her away and left her sitting on her ass. Xu watched him walk away, rubbing her jaw and her eyes glistening with unshed tears. Meanwhile Squall walked into Balamb and into the liquor store. Even though he wasn't old enough they still sold it to him. After getting a few bottles he walked out and went down to the docks. A few drabby looking kids were down there and noticed him. "Hey man, are you buying or supplying?" A girl asked him.

"Buying or supplying what?" Squall looked at them and a boy opened his jacket to reveal baggies of dope. Heroin, meth, pot, you name it. Squall looked at the bags with interest. 'That could help. I wouldn't feel pain with those babies.' The girl looked around anxiously and Squall nodded. "I'll take some of each." He said. "What!? No shittin!?" The boy said and Squall gave them a few hundered gil. "Okay mister, here you go." Squall hid them and the kids nodded. "You should go before the fucking cops show up." The girl said and Squall walked away, going back to Garden.

Cid looked over Xu's bruised jaw and grimaced. They were in the Infirmiry with Dr. Kadowaski. "Why did Squall grab you like that? You two didn't fight did you?" He asked and she shook her head. "No. He's acting...off. I don't know." Xu said and Dr. Kadowaski gave her a pack. "Do you want a little bit of potion?" She asked. "No. I'm going to ask the others if they know anything." Xu said and left. "I need to talk to the boy. Squall never was a violent person outside battle, unless it was with Seifer." Cid said. "I know." Dr. Kadowaski agreed.

Squall walked into Garden and rushed to his room, locking the door behind him. With a sigh he took out all his stuff and stared at it. He took out some blue pills and thrust them into his mouth. Taking a cap off a bottle of new vodka he swallowed them and grimaced at the rush of heat from the alcohol. The heat spread throught his veins and he sighed again. 'How long will it take before I get enough guts and finish it? I wonder.' He thought and his vision blurred. 'I should go see Xu.' With that thought he stood up and started towards the door. When he got there a knock came and he groaned. "It's me Squall." Xu said and he shrugged. 'What a ...a...whatever.' He thought and opened the door.

Xu walked in and he closed the door. He quickly hid the baggies before she seen and she stared at him. "Squall? Have you been drinking?" Her nose scrunched up as the odor hit her. "No." Squall lied and she raised an eyebrow. "I can smell it." She said. "Wanna have sex?' Squall slurred as the drug and alcohol took full effect. Xu's eyes went huge at his request. "What!?" Squall blinked and walked towards her slowly. "Xu...don't you want to fuck?" He asked and tilted a little. "Uh...you're drunk." She said and Squall shook his head. "No I'm not. I'm horny." He grabbed her and pressed himself to her.

The smell of liquor overwhelmed her and felt the Commander grinding his pelvis to hers. "Uh...Squall. Go to bed and sleep it off." Squall looked at her and pulled her with him. 'Oh shit.' Xu thought and she tugged. "No Squall." She said and he looked at her with red rimmed blue eyes. "Why? Is it because I'm disgusting?" Squall asked and Xu wasn't sure what to think. "Go. I have things to do." Squall said and dragged her to the door. After opening it he gave her a light push out and locked it behind her. 'What the hell just happened?' Xu thought to herself and walked away, giving up on talking to the others.

Squall groaned as his mind throbbed. His fingers and toes becoming numb. Squall stumbled to his bedroom and laid down, the room spinning. With a gurgle he threw up on the floor and bed before passing out into a blank unconscienceness.

TBC
I'm not sure how much I can update, someone here is hogging the computer so It's iffy of when it will be updated.