My Road
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Final Fantasy VII › Yaoi - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
25
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1,016
Reviews:
9
Recommended:
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I do not own Final Fantasy 7, It’s original characters, places, etc. Nor do I make any money from this fanfiction. The only things that are mine are my own original added characters. And the situations or new places added to my story.
chapter 21
Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 7, It’s original characters, places, etc. Nor do I make any money from this fanfiction. The only things that are mine are my own original added characters. And the situations or new places added to flesh out my own story.
Warnings: Angst…
My Road
~Chapter 21~
There was such an assault to his senses when he finally made it outside with the dark angel’s assistance. He’d awoken only an hour after that tumultuous event that had wracked his soul yet again. The dreams came back. Whatever the drug was, that was being administered to him… he wanted to ask that it not be given him anymore. It had to be the reason for his wretched and scary dreams. Yeah… that’s what it was…
The man whose name he learned was Tseng, told him to call him sir, since it was more appropriate. He seemed so kind, he was looking out for Reno now for over a week, since the ‘incident’, which Reno could not get him to explain or give him details in any way whatsoever. It was like an open and closed book, that if he didn’t know already… that it would never be spoken of. Tseng had quite simply told him to trust him and move on.
As he closed his eyes to the real sunlight that lit up his skin like a light bulb and deeply breathed in of the salty tangy air. He tried very hard to shrug the thoughts that plagued him with doubt and worry. He was Reno… from under the plate… saved by someone who could help him move past the horrid ‘incident’ that had put him out of commission and almost took his life, and bring him into a better world.
On his own he could not make it two steps in this strange and wonderful world outside of Midgar, but with Tseng’s help he could do it, and grow strong and live safely and well cared for by him. Reno looked up from the lounging seat on the lanai as the sun’s rays turned golden then pinkish orange and saw the stark and serene face of the man who was making him grateful he was experiencing this moment… He could support him and repay the generous kindness.
Though he could not remember his own past and life’s details… he knew just HOW hard and impossible it was to get to the upper plate, let alone OUT of Midgar when you are born and raised from the slums. Reno could remember everything about the city, the war, Shinra, SOLDIER, TURKS, upper and lower plate economics and politics… so much… just, NOTHING of himself.
Reno was stumbled out of his inner musings by Tseng’s voice. The man was facing him now. “I asked, have you decided yet. You have a peaceful aura about you right now…” He said with that half smirk and twitch of the lips that Reno had already learned was his smug ‘I told you so’ look.
Reno smiled half-heartedly. “I am honored to be your protégé, student, friend, or companion. Whatever you would like… to repay you for your kindness of taking me in and saving my life. And…” He turned his eyes back to the now-crimson setting sun. “Giving me a chance at ‘this’ life…” He breathed.
Tseng made his move forward to touch the young man on the back of his neck. “Always remember your word then….” The man said dangerously. But he was looking down at Reno with a look of hunger and passion. When Reno turned up at the change in tone, Tseng leaned down and took the boy’s lips with his own. The kiss was chaste and Tseng pulled back. “It is sealed… you belong to me now.” He narrowed his eyes and stood up straight to watch the last rays of light disappear with the boy.
Reno’s insides quivered in fear, delight, and regret. What had he done? It felt right and wrong all at the same time. He bowed his head for a moment. Ohh so wrong…
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
The days went by quickly as Reno healed completely and learned his way around the sprawling home that belonged to the man, that he himself also belonged to. It wasn’t a harsh thing. He simply looked up to the man as the final word, and the guiding hand that Reno craved so much. His word was law for Reno.
The dreams were frequent despite the removal of all pain and muscular medications. Yet no memories came back. Reno found himself shutting out the strange sensations he experienced, and the pictures of memories that flashed up, he wanted them gone and forgotten. Something unattainable and painful to recall is all they would be. So with the dreams, as he awoke he would wrap his arms around himself and dig his fingers into his bare skin of his arms till he drew blood. He’d chant his name, and Tseng’s and Gaia… over and over and over again until the pain would dissipate from inside…and become something physical instead.
Tseng was around all the time until Reno got the hang of things, then was gone… a lot... in fact Reno hardly ever saw him anymore. He never thought he could miss and crave something that he hardly knew so much in his entire being. He wasn’t alone. There was a small staff on the grounds in this sprawling estate that sat alone against the ocean shore with a mountain flagging the back side of the property. It was such a perfect and private sanctuary. But all he felt with that beauty was more alone than he thought his whole self had ever known. He was so utterly and completely alone. And out of place here too.
Tseng had become utterly and completely possessive from the moment that Reno had agreed to stay with him. But in a sense Reno felt at ease with that. It felt like a weight of responsibility was lifted from his shoulders. The heavy hand on his shoulder, or the nape of his neck or his waist was comforting and gave him a slight sense of belonging. But while Tseng was gone… even that wasn’t there.
…The tantalizingly close leaning of the man as he spoke to Reno… every time… Reno always thinking that he would kiss him again… Reno shook his head. Why would he think that way. Gaia… he didn’t even know how old he was.
He’d been taught that he was expected to keep things running smoothly while Tseng was away. So the ‘hang of things’ that he’s gotten, was the rules, certain chores of safekeeping, actions that were allowed, actions that were not. The days had turned into weeks…
Then one day while Reno was napping on the couch in the library at the top of the stairs, there was a flurry of activity from the doorkeeper below, as he scrambled to open the door. Reno smiled excitedly as a young man would. Tseng was home. He sat up and scrambled to the banister to look down at the head of midnight black hair pulled… Falling!? Loosely around the face of a… muddied and bloodied man, whose clothes were shredded and barely clinging to him.
“Tseng!” Reno shouted and scrambled down the stairs as fast as he could. “Tseng what happened to…..” Reno was stopped short by a fist connecting across his right cheek, knocking him to the flood. He saw stars. And for some reason, he figured that, that shouldn’t be the case… but when had he ever fought? “Why….” He whispered as he felt the blood dripping down the corner of his lip.
Tseng’s breathing hadn’t even risen, nor had he even looked Reno in the eye yet. But, the sheer aura of disapproval was so thick you could have sliced it, as he’d reacted to Reno on pure instinct. “Do…not… you EVER” He hissed each word and slowly turned his head to scan Reno’s body. “EVER… question me in MY home… you are here of MY graciousness…” He finally locked fierce looking eyes with Reno’s widened and shimmering ones. “You are here… because you are too weak to live without me. You need me. You are NOTHING without me. And because you WANTED to be here… so you do not EVER question me while we are in or on MY property…” He finished with an even more venomous hiss, and again looked Reno up and down.
“Go to your room, clean up, and await me, I will be in to speak with you later…” He looked around Reno’s face with an expression that seemed softer all of a sudden.
Reno didn’t know what to do. Something about Tseng’s outburst had made him internally and externally freeze. But, this man cared about him… right? Reno shuddered. He went to open his mouth to say ‘yes sir’ but the glare he received again made him think twice. So he simply scrambled up and down the hall towards the other staircase.
Tseng grabbed his chest tightly after Reno went away. He’d returned from an intense mission. Trying to win over the superiors was not proving to be easy. ‘control my emotions… I can control mine…and yours too’ he thought to himself snidely. He’d been through a lot, he wanted to make his moves to climb up the ladder. In fact… it was expected of him now. Though, no one would ever know that, nor…know why.
He picked up his phone and dialed a number, holding it up to his ear he began to speak as the line picked up. “Yes, mission complete… clean up is needed. No, I am fine. I will be back to base in 48 hours. I have to deal with some person things in the meanwhile. Yes, I understand. “ He hung up. It was not good business for him to not completely throw himself into the job whole hearted, but he couldn’t help himself. Just as he was ready to rid himself of his old life… he had come across the chance of the lifetime. He grinned thinking of Reno, and whispered the word “Cure” merely pressing his lips into a straight line when the spell took effect. This sudden need for discipline of the young man… had left the perfect training opportunity.
~~~End Chapter~~~
A/N: ok… ok… I think I have even mentioned to more than one person… this would be longer than this. Actually, this is only HALF of what I intended chapter 21 to be actually slightly less than half. But as I came to this point I figured that this was the perfect place to leave off and let ya’l get a taste of the direction this is going.
I have a new job and am MUCH much busier now than what I was before… thus the reason updates took longer even though my writing muse was strongly beside me all along. It stinks.. I finally feel like writing nonstop and I’m so stinking tired I can’t keep my head up for it :P well.. I will try hard to get out a chapter every week to two. And I still have other stories to update this week and next as well.
So I apologize deeply for the wait… and for the SHORTNESS of the chapter! I HATE short chapters L but… its better than nothing I guess … thank you EVERYONE!!! So SO much.. for your IMENSLY WONDERFUL reviews!!!!! *hugs to all*
Warnings: Angst…
My Road
~Chapter 21~
There was such an assault to his senses when he finally made it outside with the dark angel’s assistance. He’d awoken only an hour after that tumultuous event that had wracked his soul yet again. The dreams came back. Whatever the drug was, that was being administered to him… he wanted to ask that it not be given him anymore. It had to be the reason for his wretched and scary dreams. Yeah… that’s what it was…
The man whose name he learned was Tseng, told him to call him sir, since it was more appropriate. He seemed so kind, he was looking out for Reno now for over a week, since the ‘incident’, which Reno could not get him to explain or give him details in any way whatsoever. It was like an open and closed book, that if he didn’t know already… that it would never be spoken of. Tseng had quite simply told him to trust him and move on.
As he closed his eyes to the real sunlight that lit up his skin like a light bulb and deeply breathed in of the salty tangy air. He tried very hard to shrug the thoughts that plagued him with doubt and worry. He was Reno… from under the plate… saved by someone who could help him move past the horrid ‘incident’ that had put him out of commission and almost took his life, and bring him into a better world.
On his own he could not make it two steps in this strange and wonderful world outside of Midgar, but with Tseng’s help he could do it, and grow strong and live safely and well cared for by him. Reno looked up from the lounging seat on the lanai as the sun’s rays turned golden then pinkish orange and saw the stark and serene face of the man who was making him grateful he was experiencing this moment… He could support him and repay the generous kindness.
Though he could not remember his own past and life’s details… he knew just HOW hard and impossible it was to get to the upper plate, let alone OUT of Midgar when you are born and raised from the slums. Reno could remember everything about the city, the war, Shinra, SOLDIER, TURKS, upper and lower plate economics and politics… so much… just, NOTHING of himself.
Reno was stumbled out of his inner musings by Tseng’s voice. The man was facing him now. “I asked, have you decided yet. You have a peaceful aura about you right now…” He said with that half smirk and twitch of the lips that Reno had already learned was his smug ‘I told you so’ look.
Reno smiled half-heartedly. “I am honored to be your protégé, student, friend, or companion. Whatever you would like… to repay you for your kindness of taking me in and saving my life. And…” He turned his eyes back to the now-crimson setting sun. “Giving me a chance at ‘this’ life…” He breathed.
Tseng made his move forward to touch the young man on the back of his neck. “Always remember your word then….” The man said dangerously. But he was looking down at Reno with a look of hunger and passion. When Reno turned up at the change in tone, Tseng leaned down and took the boy’s lips with his own. The kiss was chaste and Tseng pulled back. “It is sealed… you belong to me now.” He narrowed his eyes and stood up straight to watch the last rays of light disappear with the boy.
Reno’s insides quivered in fear, delight, and regret. What had he done? It felt right and wrong all at the same time. He bowed his head for a moment. Ohh so wrong…
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
The days went by quickly as Reno healed completely and learned his way around the sprawling home that belonged to the man, that he himself also belonged to. It wasn’t a harsh thing. He simply looked up to the man as the final word, and the guiding hand that Reno craved so much. His word was law for Reno.
The dreams were frequent despite the removal of all pain and muscular medications. Yet no memories came back. Reno found himself shutting out the strange sensations he experienced, and the pictures of memories that flashed up, he wanted them gone and forgotten. Something unattainable and painful to recall is all they would be. So with the dreams, as he awoke he would wrap his arms around himself and dig his fingers into his bare skin of his arms till he drew blood. He’d chant his name, and Tseng’s and Gaia… over and over and over again until the pain would dissipate from inside…and become something physical instead.
Tseng was around all the time until Reno got the hang of things, then was gone… a lot... in fact Reno hardly ever saw him anymore. He never thought he could miss and crave something that he hardly knew so much in his entire being. He wasn’t alone. There was a small staff on the grounds in this sprawling estate that sat alone against the ocean shore with a mountain flagging the back side of the property. It was such a perfect and private sanctuary. But all he felt with that beauty was more alone than he thought his whole self had ever known. He was so utterly and completely alone. And out of place here too.
Tseng had become utterly and completely possessive from the moment that Reno had agreed to stay with him. But in a sense Reno felt at ease with that. It felt like a weight of responsibility was lifted from his shoulders. The heavy hand on his shoulder, or the nape of his neck or his waist was comforting and gave him a slight sense of belonging. But while Tseng was gone… even that wasn’t there.
…The tantalizingly close leaning of the man as he spoke to Reno… every time… Reno always thinking that he would kiss him again… Reno shook his head. Why would he think that way. Gaia… he didn’t even know how old he was.
He’d been taught that he was expected to keep things running smoothly while Tseng was away. So the ‘hang of things’ that he’s gotten, was the rules, certain chores of safekeeping, actions that were allowed, actions that were not. The days had turned into weeks…
Then one day while Reno was napping on the couch in the library at the top of the stairs, there was a flurry of activity from the doorkeeper below, as he scrambled to open the door. Reno smiled excitedly as a young man would. Tseng was home. He sat up and scrambled to the banister to look down at the head of midnight black hair pulled… Falling!? Loosely around the face of a… muddied and bloodied man, whose clothes were shredded and barely clinging to him.
“Tseng!” Reno shouted and scrambled down the stairs as fast as he could. “Tseng what happened to…..” Reno was stopped short by a fist connecting across his right cheek, knocking him to the flood. He saw stars. And for some reason, he figured that, that shouldn’t be the case… but when had he ever fought? “Why….” He whispered as he felt the blood dripping down the corner of his lip.
Tseng’s breathing hadn’t even risen, nor had he even looked Reno in the eye yet. But, the sheer aura of disapproval was so thick you could have sliced it, as he’d reacted to Reno on pure instinct. “Do…not… you EVER” He hissed each word and slowly turned his head to scan Reno’s body. “EVER… question me in MY home… you are here of MY graciousness…” He finally locked fierce looking eyes with Reno’s widened and shimmering ones. “You are here… because you are too weak to live without me. You need me. You are NOTHING without me. And because you WANTED to be here… so you do not EVER question me while we are in or on MY property…” He finished with an even more venomous hiss, and again looked Reno up and down.
“Go to your room, clean up, and await me, I will be in to speak with you later…” He looked around Reno’s face with an expression that seemed softer all of a sudden.
Reno didn’t know what to do. Something about Tseng’s outburst had made him internally and externally freeze. But, this man cared about him… right? Reno shuddered. He went to open his mouth to say ‘yes sir’ but the glare he received again made him think twice. So he simply scrambled up and down the hall towards the other staircase.
Tseng grabbed his chest tightly after Reno went away. He’d returned from an intense mission. Trying to win over the superiors was not proving to be easy. ‘control my emotions… I can control mine…and yours too’ he thought to himself snidely. He’d been through a lot, he wanted to make his moves to climb up the ladder. In fact… it was expected of him now. Though, no one would ever know that, nor…know why.
He picked up his phone and dialed a number, holding it up to his ear he began to speak as the line picked up. “Yes, mission complete… clean up is needed. No, I am fine. I will be back to base in 48 hours. I have to deal with some person things in the meanwhile. Yes, I understand. “ He hung up. It was not good business for him to not completely throw himself into the job whole hearted, but he couldn’t help himself. Just as he was ready to rid himself of his old life… he had come across the chance of the lifetime. He grinned thinking of Reno, and whispered the word “Cure” merely pressing his lips into a straight line when the spell took effect. This sudden need for discipline of the young man… had left the perfect training opportunity.
~~~End Chapter~~~
A/N: ok… ok… I think I have even mentioned to more than one person… this would be longer than this. Actually, this is only HALF of what I intended chapter 21 to be actually slightly less than half. But as I came to this point I figured that this was the perfect place to leave off and let ya’l get a taste of the direction this is going.
I have a new job and am MUCH much busier now than what I was before… thus the reason updates took longer even though my writing muse was strongly beside me all along. It stinks.. I finally feel like writing nonstop and I’m so stinking tired I can’t keep my head up for it :P well.. I will try hard to get out a chapter every week to two. And I still have other stories to update this week and next as well.
So I apologize deeply for the wait… and for the SHORTNESS of the chapter! I HATE short chapters L but… its better than nothing I guess … thank you EVERYONE!!! So SO much.. for your IMENSLY WONDERFUL reviews!!!!! *hugs to all*