Lovers Trust

Warnings: torture, rape, bad stuff
Notes: Chapter 22 people. Are you itching for an ending? Because right now I’m in a cross road. I could take a longer path, or a shorter. Please, please, tell me what you’d prefer!!

Corona: Thank you for your points. I’ve got ahard time with were and was words. I always put them wrong, almost. I’ll try and take to heart what you said and try to learn.

LangeHantent: I’m both pleased and sorry that you actually cried. Hope you will get somewhat satisfied with this chapter.


22

[Seifer]
He had started rating the different days they saw. A good day, Squall was left alone in his misery without being healed from the last session. A bad day, the man would torture the brunet in all different ways and sometimes, but not often use that syringe. On really bad days… Those days Seifer couldn’t stand it. In those situations, more and more of the brunet’s odd speaking and actions became clearer.

He clenched teeth, eyes and fists as the sob streaked scream echoed in the room. Shiva and Seifer had rather newly entered this memory. Seifer could tell from only the few seconds that this was a day when Squall had rebelled. When he’d not been able to stand it any more and fought against the “master”.

Seifer blinked and only stared at the room as it became clearly visible around them. Squall was in some kind of machine. He was balanced at a table looking thing, with his knees rested at two lower benches. Very much like a gynecologist chair. His midsection were strapped to the table, as his legs were secured to the things they rested on.

Squall’s arms where dragged high behind his back and chained to a hook in the machine above him. The way he was chained wasn’t what horrified Seifer. It was what was between the youth’s legs. Some kind of machine with a wheel where at least a dozen different dildos on it. One huge one was currently penetrating the brunet, and thrusting.

Squall screamed again from the brutal, inhuman way he was raped. Tears streamed down his cheeks, blood flowed down his arms from him fighting his bonds. The machine stopped, deeply penetrating the youth. Squall panted and moaned in pain between snivels. The hateful man came up beside him and petted his sweat drenched hair gently.

“Do you understand, love?” he whispered softly.

Squall didn’t answer, only laid there shaking and quivering. Biting his lip to stifle his sobs and agony. The still gentle hand stroked the trembling back.

“I do this because you were disobedient. I told you to stay here, yet you had to go do something stupid.” The man gripped Squall’s chin and lifted his head to see into the blue-grey eyes.

“You will only get hurt away from me.” Squall bit his lip in a whole different manner. He searched the man’s green eyes like he was looking for something.

“Beast,” Squall croaked out, almost nothing lauder than a whisper.

The “Master” almost seemed amused at that before he let go of Squall’s head and the machine were moving again.

“Guess you haven’t had the largest yet, huh?” he said and the wheel rotated so a new dildo came up.

It was a monster. No one could be able to take that one. It was humanly impossible. Squall got a glance of it over his shoulder, and he started trembling even before the tip nudged his entrance. His screams reached impossible heights as the machine slowly forced inside that monster. Tearing flesh and skin in its way.

“Stop! Stop!” Squall desperately pleaded and the man stopped the machine without withdrawing the thing.

“Feeling remorse, love? Want to ask forgivness?” he purred and Squall sobbed as he nodded.

“Please, forgive me. I… I was wrong. I’ll never leave again, Master,” he pleaded and it actually sounded sincere.

The man stepped up to Squall’s head and freed his obviously exited member.

“Show your master how regretful you are,” he said darkly and pressed himself inside.

Seifer’s stomach were turning as Shiva found the way through and the room disappeared around them. She glanced at him, but he didn’t know what he saw in her eyes. If it was pity or a silent question if he could continue or if she regarded him for something.

They went through some easier memories. At least in comparison. The man raped the confused brunet in different rooms and different situations. One was in some kitchen area and they were obviously right in the middle of dinner. Though, disturbingly, Seifer thought it looked like Squall was enjoying it in some way.

His body was taut and arched over the table, hands holding hard in the table as the man’s brutal thrusts made the whole table shake. As the act was over, Squall stayed seated at the table, only a too big shirt somewhat hiding his nude form. The man gave him a sandwich that Squall swallowed in two cautious chews, almost choking on it in his hast. As the “Master” stroked his face, Squall leaned into the touch like a cat may do to its master. His eyes were very blue and empty.

: : Did he… forget us? Did he forget Rinoa? : : Seifer didn’t know weather he wanted the answer to that question.

Shiva eyed him and then frowned in the way she did when searching for words. Seifer had gotten very patient with her. It actually surprised him at times.

They got inside another memory, just in and out. Squall had been strapped to some table with a machine connected to his head. Strange. That seemed like nothing from before.

: : What was that? : : he wondered, partly horrified he really wanted to know anything about this.

Shiva stopped before they reentered the memory. She nodded.

: : He did not forget, he hid : : she answered.

The memory was a very hazy one. Seifer vaguely saw Squall at that table and the machine to his head. He thought he saw some white clothed men in the background.

: : They brainwashed him? : : he asked and looked at the cold GF.

Shiva made a sound that was both a yes and a no.

: : Lion cub was dangerous, Ifrit child too. The witch wanted him to fall : : she explained in that typical way that didn’t say Seifer one shit.

But he only hummed. They left the memory.

It felt like an eternity of pain and suffering. Seifer could see the change clearly. How… something evaporated from Squall. The memories also became more hazy. They where traveling faster and faster through them and what Seifer saw, Squall’s had been rescued by his friends, yet the memories was hazy and sometimes they didn’t see anything in them. Only heard voices or sounds.

Suddenly they where out in blackness. Shiva held her arms around herself and gazed out over the nothingness with a worried expression. Sefer swallowed. He’d never seen her like that. And it scared him because he wasn’t almighty strong. He couldn’t take too much. He was already weary from all the exhausting memories. He was in pain too. An ache in the pit of his stomach and where his heart should be.

Squall had gone through all that alone, had carried it alone. Would he really be ok? Could Seifer help him with something like that? Seifer glanced at Shiva again.

: : Why are we stopping? Lost? : : he tried teasing, but he failed miserably.

Shiva sighed and closed her eyes.

: : I can not follow further : : she declared and Seifer’s eyes widened.

: : What’d you mean can’t follow any further? You’re not going to leave me, are you? : : He suddenly felt very afraid.

He couldn’t go alone on his own. He didn’t know where to go, or how to do. Shiva saw at him.

: : Another will take you from here? : : she explained.

: : Another? Who? Who could go deeper than you? : : he asked.

What he understood, the GF’s got as far as Squall would allow them. Who did Squall trust more than Shiva? The one and only for him? Shiva smiled faintly.

: : Grievier will show you the way : :

They stared at each other. Griever? But… how? Wasn’t that the one they had been fighting? When Seifer come to think about it, Griever was the one that held the two GF’s and the two humans’ safe.

: : Why? Isn’t he… a dangerous one? A enemy? How come Squall accepts him further than he accepts you? : : Seifer asked and Shiva frowned.

: : Lion cub : : she answered and Seifer closed his eyes.

: : I really don’t understand, and I really need to understand this one : : he said patiently.

She sighed and sat down, embracing her legs to her chest like a little girl would do. A snowy scenery took form around them and Seifer frowned. They both sat at a hill and looked out over some valley. Seifer didn’t recognize it. He wasn’t one to search for snowy places.

: : Lion cub always loved you : : Shiva spoke softly and it perked Seifer’s interest.

: : Even as child were hurt and taunted, he adored you : : she continued silently.

: : Really? You’re not imagining things are you? : : he said sarcastically.

What he remembered, Squall had always been cold and had the aura of “untouchable”. Shiva smiled faintly as if she where remembering something pleasant. As Seifer was about to ask about her strange behavior, he saw motions on the way up over the hill.

Two humans staggered upwards through the strong wind. They were both clocked and huddled close to each other, but he guessed it was a female and a male. Suddenly Shiva stepped up beside the seated GF and human. Seifer blinked at the GF’s memory.

: : You? How? : : he wondered as he studied the three. Something was off here.

The two humans came up close to the GF’s memory form and looked up. Seifer had to blink rapidly. The two humans were like twins to Squall and Seifer. But the lithe brunet were defiantly a woman, and not male. And she had defiantly a round belly that hinted at a third little human being.

: : What is this? : : Seifer didn’t know if he wanted to know the answer.

: : The two of you… In another time, another era : : the GF answered softly.

Her memory lovingly stroked the belly of the Squall woman. The memory slowly disappeared only to change to another scenario, this definitely in this time. Or at least that was what Seifer thought. At the jungle around them, Seifer guessed they where somewhere in Galbadia.

Squall were seated at a stone and were carving something from a wooden piece. The youth had waist long hair. Pearls where braided into the chocolate strands and Seifer was sure any woman would be envious in front of such beauty. He was clothed in white, lithe cloths. His arms were bare as his feet. Around his neck and arms and ankles, golden bracelets circled. He wasn’t at all as muscular as the Squall Seifer knew. He was… beautiful. Just like Seifer guessed his Squall would be, clothed like that.

Suddenly the bushes moved and Grevier stepped out of them. The larg cat towered several heads over Squall. The brunet didn’t seem intimidated however. He looked up and stopped his working. The cat gracefully jumped up at the stone behind the human and placed a leg at either side of Squall. A way to large and clawed hand stroked the naked arm of the brunet. A deep purring rumbled from the impressive chest of the cat.

“Get away from him!”

Both Squall and Seifer jumped. Seifer frowned as he saw a copy of himself enter from another direction. Well, not exactly a copy. This Seifer was older by at least six or eight years and was much heavier than Seifer currently was. He blinked at himself. Could he really build such muscles? Seemed impossible. And… horrid thing, he had a braid in his neck though the rest of his hair was short.

“Do not interfere, human,” Grevier rumbled, but the Seifer only glared.

“He has given you what you asked for, leave him be,” the Seifer growled.

“Seifer…” Squall silently called.

This Squall had a melodious clang to his voice that Seifer were sure his Squall never could accomplish even if he tried.

: : I don’t understand : : Seifer said slowly as the memory disappeared and the blackness yet again took place around them.

: : At the time, he was a ‘sacrifice’. The world was at war and strong warriors were needed. Only a few had the ability to merge with GF’s : : Shiva explained and Seifer could actually understand her.

: : Merge? What does that mean? : : he asked silently.

Then the belief in reincarnation was true? It was a dead religion that Seifer had only heard about.

: : A sacrifice was a person who heard us and had enough strength not to die by entering the pool. By, with your human language, having sex with Griever, they became as close to one that is possibly : : Shiva concluded and Seifer blinked.

: : Really : : he said slowly.

What had this to do with anything?

: : Lion cub is Lion cub from that : : Shiva explained softly.

She rose to her feet. Seifer eyed her. This was too much. So by sacrificing himself, Squall forever doomed to have that GF in his head? Or what? Before he could ask, a rumble, like that purring, could be heard. Out of nowhere, Griever stepped. Shiva hunshed back a little.

: : Go : : she said silently and gave a faint smile.

Seifer had hundreds of things to ask her. But he turned to the cat GF and went to him without hesitation. Griever made a smirk that just looked scary. Very much like Ifrit, though Ifrit didn’t have this ominous aura. They went into the darkness and left the blue light of Shiva behind.


Author’s Whining:

Another chapter, another step on the road. Remember what I asked for in the upper notes? I sincerely wants to know what you want. Longer, or shorter.