Spira as a dream

We went down the hall from the bridge, and curved around a long corridor Wakka was unusually quiet. We passed by the rooms filled with refugees, and finally found an empty room. It was more comfort that I’d seen in all of Spira, a big king sized bed, fantastic lighting, cumphy plush couches and carpeting, what looked like a bar. It felt like a hotel back in Zanarkand, at least somebody on this rock knew how to live… once.
“We should tell Rikku where we are ya?” Wakka said softly.
“Yeah” I found and intercom near the door and banged on the control until I was connected to the bridge.
“Cap’n Rikku here! What can I do ya for?” She said with a giggle. Even know as cheerful as ever, it was beautiful really, but it caught me off guard.
“I just wanted to see how the search for Yuna is going… and tell you that were gonna take a rest.” I said awkwardly.
“Okay! Cid is using the sphere finder to look for Yuna, but he doesn’t know how to use it so it could take days!”
“He doesn’t know how to use it?”
“We’re flyin around in the dark here because Yevon outlawed Machina… isn’t this exhilarating?” Cid shouted over the intercom.
“Get away form there!” Rikku shouted, it sounded like there was a struggle.
“Hey!” Cid shouted in the background.
“I’ll call if we need anything, now you and the big meanie get some rest. Rikku out!” I turned the intercom off without really thinking then turned back to Wakka who had been standing silently beside me.
“Is she gonna hate me forever for dat?” He asked with a bit of a pout.
“Are you gonna hate her forever for being Al Bhed?”
“I don’t hate her… I just, she’s a—”
“Rikku is just Rikku, Yuna’s just Yuna and I’m just me.” I said simply.
“I know, it’s just—why is Yuna just Yuna?” he asked sitting down on one of the couches.
“Rikku and Yuna are cousins, she’s half Al Bhed.”
I could see him trying hard not to make a face, but it was clear that he still disapproved. I sat down on the bed and he just stared at me from one of the couches.
“And what about you, ya? You Al Bhed too?”
“No, but… would it really be so bad if I was?”
He took awhile thinking, then just turned to face the window, dismissing the question. I’m still waiting for an answer. I lay back on the bed to stretch my legs and was mortified again to find Wakka’s attention completely focused on me. Well… not mortified… shocked maybe, but definitely embarrassed
“Uh…hi.” I said looking up at him. I felt shy all of a sudden, like I had nothing to say. Maybe sharing a room was a bad idea.
“Hi…”
“You want to… lie down? I know you’re tired… I could get out or your way…”
“No, no, no. you stay here. If anybody should leave it’s me ya? You’re already comfortable.” He said awkwardly. His gaze never left me, and I started thinking; maybe it was a good idea after all.
“You can… um… lay down if you want to.” I said meeting his hazelnut eyes as they searched me for an explanation.
“But you should—”
“It’s no big deal, sharing a room, is it?” He blushed a little, thinking it over, and then decided it was okay, I guess. He hesitated for a moment before he joined me, and then a maddening silence filled the room.
“Wakka… why are you so nervous” I asked looking over at him, he just stared up at the ceiling.
“What’choo talking about, I’m not nervous!”
“Yes you are, you’re all still and quiet. It’s like you can’t relax at all.”
“It’s nothing.”
“Well… it’s not everyday that we get any privacy… so I’m gonna make the best of it.” I stood at the end of the bed in Wakka’s line of sight, slowly removing my bracer and sword, setting them on a near by uniform, and then removing my blitzing uniform. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d taken it off. Then I was left wearing nothing but my Zanarkand Abes pendant, earring and a thin pair of silky yellow boxers. Wakka gasped softly, holding his breath as I made my way back to the bed and slipped under the covers.
“Wh-what’choo doing? Dat’s indecent, ya?” Wakka said, covering his eyes with his hands but still peeking.
“Relax Wakka! We’re friends, right? So what’s the big deal?”
“Yeah, but…”
“But nothing, just make yourself comfortable.” I said with a mischievous grin. Wakka was lucky, if he thought this was risqué, because most of the time I didn’t even wear underwear.
“Tidus… are you sure you’re comfortable wit dat?”
“Yeah, I don’t see what the big deal is as long as it’s you.” I said boldly, but I still wasn’t sure if he got the message… or wanted it. He stared at me before, sure, but that didn’t mean he could drop all of his fear and just be with me… did it?
“Well, I guess dat’s good enough for me, ya?” He said softly, and then moved to the corner of the room, slipping off his Auroch’s uniform. I had to take a moment to marvel at his thick tanned muscles, he was a lot bigger that me and it was definitely to my liking.
“Come on.” I said, pulling back the covers. “It’s a nice bed.”
He walked over slowly, and looked me over shyly before sitting down and burying himself in a mountain of blankets.
“This is nice, ya? I don’t think I’ve ever been on a bed this soft.”
It was cute really, the way he snuggled into the light blue covers, his orange hair sticking out, bending against the pillow. I thought I’d melt just looking at him, but I decided to let him rest it had been a hard couple of days. I settled in staring at his broad back and slipped into a deep dreamless sleep.


As I slept on I drifted into a dream. Yuna was calling to me for help, but I couldn’t move. I was in a big circle, Lulu, Wakka and Rikku were by my side, trying to get me to move, each grabbing a limb and pulling in different directions. A they fought I could hear Yuna screaming in the background, yelling about how I’d failed her and how she’d gone to Zanarkand just like I’d asked. Rikku let go of my leg indignantly.
“I thought you were going to bring me to Zanarkand!” She started crying, I didn’t know what to do. Then Lulu threw my other leg to the ground.
“I thought I was more your type, little boy.” She started to cast a thundaga spell, though it was taking longer that usual. Wakka still held tightly to my arm.
“Is okay, ya? I trust you even though you lied to me.”
“I lied to you too Wakka?”
“You said I was da only one for you, ya?” He held his head low for a moment. And as Lulu cast her spell he threw me out of the way. It wasn’t Thundaga after all, it was Death. The masked reaper burst out of a black cloud, its toy box laughter filling my ears and overshadowing everything. The reaper ripped out poor Wakka’s heart and the crushed it, is body dropping coldly to the floor.
“No! Wakka!” I screamed. The laughing never ceased, everything has blanket in darkness.
“Didn’t I tell you not to fall in love?” Auron’s voice scolded. Then I saw Lulu cast death on Rikku, and then herself and it went silent except for the sound of me crying.
“Kimahri fail! Everyone Gone!” He lifted up his spear and slit a line from his belly to his throat, blood spilling everywhere. He was added to the pile of bodies on the floor.
“This is all your fault. You would do well to listen. Now there is nothing left binding me to this world.” Auron said, pyerflies spilling out of his body one by one until there was a burst of white light and he was gone.
“No! Auron come back! Don’t leave me! Wakka!!!”
I woke up to Wakka shaking me frantically.
“Is okay Tidus, I’m right here, ya? You’re okay.” He said in such a tender voice, I couldn’t hold back. I just burst into tears right there, grabbing Wakka’s arm for support.
“What’s wrong, Bradda?”
“I-I had a bad dream.” I sniffled, trying to pull myself together. “I’m so stupid, such a cry baby.”
“Tidus, its okay to cry, ya? Nothin wrong wit being sad, specially after all we’ve seen.” He said gently, still holding tightly to my shoulders.
“But it was just a dream.” I tried to pull away from him, but he was holding my shoulders in place, making me look at him.
“Must ‘a been some hell of a dream, ya? Why don’chyooo tell me about it?”
I looked at him for a long time, wondering weather I could tell him the whole story. He looked so concerned, holding me there, my back against the headboard. I didn’t want to ruin it… what ever it was.
“I dreamt… that everybody died, and it was all my fault.” I started to sob again, I couldn’t help it. The image of all their bodies mixed in with the memories of the Al Bhed, and the Crusaders at Mushroom Rock, I’d never seen so much death. I don’t know how they could stand it.
“Rough, ya? It’s okay though, everytings gonna be alright, Bradda.” He whispered, wrapping his arms tightly around me, and I didn’t say anymore. He just let me cry. I never realized before that a good cry might’ve been what I needed, what all of us needed.
“Wakka?”
“Ya?”
“Thank you.”
“No problem, what are friends for, ya?”
“…Wakka…” I decided it was worth the risk of being rejected, I snuggled into his arms, brushing my cheek across his strong chest as I wrapped my arms around him.
“Oi, uh Tidus…”
“I really like you Wakka, a lot.” I said into his chest, hearing his breath catch and his heart thumping faster and faster.
“But…”
“Shhh, it’s okay Wakka, you don’t need to be afraid.”
“But…”
“It doesn’t feel wrong, does it?” I asked, snuggling closer, feeling his hardness press against my leg.
“I, uh… no, but…”
“But what?” I asked, leaning in, I didn’t know if he would accept me, or turn me away, but I thought I saw something in his eyes that night, and I couldn’t hold back any longer.
“!!” I brushed my lips against his; still holding him around the waist even after his arms went slack. I pulled back to look at him, he seemed surprised to say the least.
“Tidus!” He gasped, and stared at me wide eyed, his lips parted slightly. I started to think ‘maybe this wasn’t such a good idea’ and then he spoke again in a whisper. “I-I like you too.” He kissed me and boy what a kiss. His lips were firm and controlling, yet soft and loving, he kissed me again and again, running a hand up and down my arm and the other cupping my cheek. I parted my lips inviting his tongues, he tasted sweeter than I had expected, kind of like a tropical breeze. I pulled him over me as the kiss intensifies, his tongue ravishing mine roughly, I had already accepted his dominance.
“Wakka!” I moaned, as his lips roamed from my lips to my neck. I felt my way across his rich firm skin following every curve of muscle.
“Wh-what do we…? I mean… I’ve never… ah…” He laughed nervously, like I would mind. I could tell he was inexperienced, and nervous, it was just funny that he thought I might mind.
“It’s okay, we’ll go slow.” I breathed kissing him tenderly as I sat him down beneath me, letting my hands wander down between his legs. I could tell that Wakka was ‘happy to see me’. I ran my hand over him, caressing the hard mountain of fabric, listening to his sharp intake of breath between kisses.
“Tidus…” He moaned, already breaking a sweat, I unbuttoned his shorts quickly, I wanted him so bad my body was aching to be filled, but I knew he wasn’t quite ready for that. I tried to get him to relax and lay back, but he was just too nervous. I planted a few kisses across his ribs, causing Wakka to chuckle, almost giggle really. Then I knelt before him, I though it would be funny to give him Yevon’s prayer right then, before he let me love him. In retrospect it was way too soon to be making that kind of crack, but in the moment it didn’t seem to matter. Wakka stiffened up completely when I first touched him, working him out of his shorts. I took a moment to admire his length; he was larger that I had expected another pleasant surprise. I looked up at him and smiled, he was flushed all over, knowing what I meant to do, but from the look on his face he didn’t really believe it. I kept my eyes locked with his as I held his length, stroking it slowly and licking the tip playfully. He gasped as I tasted him, never taking his eyes off me. I took Wakka’s head into my mouth, swirling my tongue around it and poking along the slit. I took him further into my mouth, until my lips were firmly around the root of his shaft and he was well down my throat. I licked along the underside fondling his balls with one hand, and sucking as hard as I could, gauging his reaction to every little lick and caress. I started bobbing my head up and down, letting him almost slip from between my lips before taking him back all the way down my throat again. I could feel Wakka’s hands gripping my scalp as I sucked on him, it was sweet; he didn’t push or pull, he just massaged my scalp gently, periodically running his fingers through my hair. He started groaning deep in his throat, his hips rocking into the pace of my lips and tongue. His breath hitched as I increased my speed, sucking hard in the whole of his length.
“Tidus” He groaned, gripping tighter in my hair as his seed shot hard down my throat, I swallowed most of or and as his hips gave their last twitches of orgasm I pulled back, letting the rest spill over my tongue. It was great, the way he tasted, the way he felt in my mouth, the satisfied look on his face as he gazed down at me, he laid back against the pillows finally, chuckling as I crawled up to lay nest to him.
“Dat was amazing, ya? You learn how to do dat in Zanarkand too?” He breathed, still chuckling. I thought it was best not to answer.
“I’m glad you liked it.” I said, I knew I was grinning proudly, but I couldn’t help it. It was about time for something this wonderful. ‘It’s like the dawn after the storm.’ I thought, sharing slow sated kissed with Wakka, forgetting my needs and melting into his big strong arms. I felt safe, and loved for the first time since I came to Spira, the first time ever really. And I drifted into the best sleep of my life in his arms, feeling ‘Home’.

But when I woke up, Wakka was gone.