The journal of a knight
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Final Fantasy VIII › Het - Male/Female
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Final Fantasy VIII › Het - Male/Female
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
11
Views:
747
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January 20th to 29th
Jan 20th
The next day at work it was just me and Marko. It was Melisa's day off. I was surprised to see Zell show up again. He wasn't nearly as embarresed as he was before. He walked around and found the items he wanted on his own. This time he didn't get any toys.
He got a few books on Anal sex. When he brought them up to the counter I relized the toys he had bought before weren't for him. The books he bought were for women who were trying to have anal sex.
"Whose the girl?" I asked.
"None of your godamn buisness loser," he said taking the books. "I'm surprised the owner of this place hasn't fired you yet."
"I'm actually a pretty good worker," I said.
"Yeah right." Zell said.
I wanted to kick his ass but I couldn't. I would get fired for beating up as customer. Zell just smirked before leaving. After work I headed to the park and I was in real trouble when I got there. The guy in charge, James , told me that I was going to have make up those hours. I didn't mind.
Jan 22
Tonight Melisa came over and she brought Shawn with her. I told her that I didn't mind her having the kid around. In fact I kind of liked the little kid. I never really liked babies but something about Shawn was different.
He was crawling and was trying to walk but he just couldn't do it. Melisa was concerned that he wans't walking on his own yet. I her told that most babies don't start walking until they are a year and a half. The only reason I knew that was because I didn't start walking til I was two years old.
I didn't really remember it but at the same time I do. It's like a picture in my mind that is old and torn. I'm not even sure if I really remember it or if I just want to remember that stuff so much that my mind made it up.
I managed to cook dinner for Melisa and me. I wasn't never a great cook but chicken wasn't that hard. She was pretty impressed that I could cook. She said that I was a better cook than her. Scary thought.
After dinner we went into my living room and started to watch Shrek. Shawn fell asleep about half way through. After all it was late for him as it was getting near 8:30. A few mintues after he fell asleep Melisa curled up against me.
That was the happiest I had been in a long time. It had been months and months since a woman had curled up against me. It got even better when she moved her head up to kiss me.
I had been kissed a million times in my life but none of them felt as good as Melisa's kisses. I kissed her back. It was a innocent enough kiss. No tongue and no open mouth. After a few seconds she pulled back.
I smiled as she blushed slightly. That must have been the first kiss she has had in a while. She didn't have much free time between working and having a baby. After the kiss we relaxed and watched the rest of the movie.
She didn't leave until late. I didn't want her to go but I knew we both had to get up and go to work in the morning. When she left I walked into the living room and laid down on the couch. I just needed a few mintues to take everything in. My life was finally comming together.
Jan 23
I didn't go into work today. I called in sick. Marko was the one who answered the phone when I called. He told me that it was fine that I missed a day and he hoped that I got better fast.
I'm sure you guessed that I wasn't really sick. I just had some pretty bad nightmares last night and just thinking about them made my stomach twist in knots. In a way I was really sick.
Since I hadn't been using GFs in a few weeks my memory was finally being released. I remembered things I didn't even know had had happened to me. I dreamt of my mother. I didn't really remember her well so that dreams were a surprise.
In the dreams she was telling me everything was going to fine and that she loved me no matter what. I didn't know what she was talking about. I just remember her hugging me and leaving me. I was all alone.
I woke up and tired to shake it off as I went to sleep again but the dreams came back. In the end I didn't get much sleep. I'm going to go and try to get some rest now and not think about those dreams.
Jan 27
The last few days have been hard. I finally got the nightmares to stop. I ened up taking some over the counter sleeping pills so that I would sleep lighter. That way I didn't dream and if I did I didn't remember them.
Melisa was concerned about me when I came back to work monday and wanted to know if I felt better. I told her I felt great because I got to see her. I didn't get the courage to ask her to be my girlfriend until today.
At first I didn't think she was up for it because she didn't answer me at first. After a second of standing there quiet she smiled and said 'of course I'll be your girlfriend'. That made my day.
Jan 28
I have to go to the doctor monday. The pills I got at the drug store are working for the nightmares but they don't take away the sad feeling I have when I wake up in the morning. Even though I don't really remember the dreams I can still feel the sadness in them.
Jan 29
My girlfriend and I got together again today. We got the day off. (Marko is going to start getting us both Saturday off) This time we went to a park so that Shawn could have a chance to play outside. He didn't get much of that. Melisa sat back on a bench and walked him play. She took my hand about half way through the day and we didn't stop holding hands until about one in the afternoon.
Shawn had found a snail and was trying to eat it. He wouldn't put it down for Melisa but when I told him to he put it back down on the ground. Melisa told me that meant he really liked me.
We didn't head back to our homes until it was dark.
The next day at work it was just me and Marko. It was Melisa's day off. I was surprised to see Zell show up again. He wasn't nearly as embarresed as he was before. He walked around and found the items he wanted on his own. This time he didn't get any toys.
He got a few books on Anal sex. When he brought them up to the counter I relized the toys he had bought before weren't for him. The books he bought were for women who were trying to have anal sex.
"Whose the girl?" I asked.
"None of your godamn buisness loser," he said taking the books. "I'm surprised the owner of this place hasn't fired you yet."
"I'm actually a pretty good worker," I said.
"Yeah right." Zell said.
I wanted to kick his ass but I couldn't. I would get fired for beating up as customer. Zell just smirked before leaving. After work I headed to the park and I was in real trouble when I got there. The guy in charge, James , told me that I was going to have make up those hours. I didn't mind.
Jan 22
Tonight Melisa came over and she brought Shawn with her. I told her that I didn't mind her having the kid around. In fact I kind of liked the little kid. I never really liked babies but something about Shawn was different.
He was crawling and was trying to walk but he just couldn't do it. Melisa was concerned that he wans't walking on his own yet. I her told that most babies don't start walking until they are a year and a half. The only reason I knew that was because I didn't start walking til I was two years old.
I didn't really remember it but at the same time I do. It's like a picture in my mind that is old and torn. I'm not even sure if I really remember it or if I just want to remember that stuff so much that my mind made it up.
I managed to cook dinner for Melisa and me. I wasn't never a great cook but chicken wasn't that hard. She was pretty impressed that I could cook. She said that I was a better cook than her. Scary thought.
After dinner we went into my living room and started to watch Shrek. Shawn fell asleep about half way through. After all it was late for him as it was getting near 8:30. A few mintues after he fell asleep Melisa curled up against me.
That was the happiest I had been in a long time. It had been months and months since a woman had curled up against me. It got even better when she moved her head up to kiss me.
I had been kissed a million times in my life but none of them felt as good as Melisa's kisses. I kissed her back. It was a innocent enough kiss. No tongue and no open mouth. After a few seconds she pulled back.
I smiled as she blushed slightly. That must have been the first kiss she has had in a while. She didn't have much free time between working and having a baby. After the kiss we relaxed and watched the rest of the movie.
She didn't leave until late. I didn't want her to go but I knew we both had to get up and go to work in the morning. When she left I walked into the living room and laid down on the couch. I just needed a few mintues to take everything in. My life was finally comming together.
Jan 23
I didn't go into work today. I called in sick. Marko was the one who answered the phone when I called. He told me that it was fine that I missed a day and he hoped that I got better fast.
I'm sure you guessed that I wasn't really sick. I just had some pretty bad nightmares last night and just thinking about them made my stomach twist in knots. In a way I was really sick.
Since I hadn't been using GFs in a few weeks my memory was finally being released. I remembered things I didn't even know had had happened to me. I dreamt of my mother. I didn't really remember her well so that dreams were a surprise.
In the dreams she was telling me everything was going to fine and that she loved me no matter what. I didn't know what she was talking about. I just remember her hugging me and leaving me. I was all alone.
I woke up and tired to shake it off as I went to sleep again but the dreams came back. In the end I didn't get much sleep. I'm going to go and try to get some rest now and not think about those dreams.
Jan 27
The last few days have been hard. I finally got the nightmares to stop. I ened up taking some over the counter sleeping pills so that I would sleep lighter. That way I didn't dream and if I did I didn't remember them.
Melisa was concerned about me when I came back to work monday and wanted to know if I felt better. I told her I felt great because I got to see her. I didn't get the courage to ask her to be my girlfriend until today.
At first I didn't think she was up for it because she didn't answer me at first. After a second of standing there quiet she smiled and said 'of course I'll be your girlfriend'. That made my day.
Jan 28
I have to go to the doctor monday. The pills I got at the drug store are working for the nightmares but they don't take away the sad feeling I have when I wake up in the morning. Even though I don't really remember the dreams I can still feel the sadness in them.
Jan 29
My girlfriend and I got together again today. We got the day off. (Marko is going to start getting us both Saturday off) This time we went to a park so that Shawn could have a chance to play outside. He didn't get much of that. Melisa sat back on a bench and walked him play. She took my hand about half way through the day and we didn't stop holding hands until about one in the afternoon.
Shawn had found a snail and was trying to eat it. He wouldn't put it down for Melisa but when I told him to he put it back down on the ground. Melisa told me that meant he really liked me.
We didn't head back to our homes until it was dark.