Schwarz Mitternacht

Later that evening, Zechs arrives late to Rufus's office. Zechs fixes his leather coat as he walks into Rufus's office, his neat hair in a slight mess.

Zechs: I'm sorry, Rufus.. There was a fight on the way here and I had to break it up. I take it Hilde got to sleep alright?

Rufus: I heard the fight outside...And Hilde is fast asleep.

Zechs: That is good, she was very excited to hear the story from you.. *Chuckles softly as he walks to one of the chairs.* The men talked of her beauty the rest of the day..

Rufus: Maybe she'll marry a soldier some day?

Zechs: If she finds one that passes your test, I know you won't let just any man have your Törtchen.

Rufus: You're exactly right. *He stands up from his chair and walks slightly towards Zechs.*

Zechs: I can see how much you love her, Rufus.. She is the shining star of this camp..(What is he doing?) You mentioned a report?

Rufus: Yes...it's right here. *He reaches into his desk, hoping Zechs will get up from his seat.*

Zechs: *Sees Rufus is not going to hand it over and stands up to take a step closer to him.* May I ask what it's about?

Rufus: *He hides his smirk as he ducks lower to act like he's searching for papers. He hastily grabs Zech's arm and pulls him onto his desk.* Ask later...

Zechs: Rufus! What are you doing? Laß mich los!...

Rufus: Do you really have to ask what I'm doing? *He begins to remove Zechs's leather jacket.*

Zechs: (Is he... no!) Stop this, Rufus! You have a wife and children.. And this is against Der Fuhrer law! *Struggles against Rufus.*

Rufus: What about my wife and children? And I'm not worried about being discovered. I'm not a homo. *He continues to undress Zechs.*

Zechs: You are undressing me and you know I am a male, we have showered together. You are bring shame on them, doesn't that matter to you?

Rufus: They can't have shame if they don't know. *He exposes Zechs's chest.* Mm...you're the perfect example of an Aryan man.

Zechs: *Holds back a shudder as his chest is exposed, his pink nipples harder at the cold air.* Stop this, Rufus...I..am your oldest friend..

Rufus: I know you're my oldest friend. That's why I have to do this. *He begins to remove Zechs's pants.*

Zechs: No, stop this Ru'! *Grabs onto Rufus's hands to stop him, know he doesn't have the heart to us all his force on him.* (I..can never hurt him, he is my closest friend..)

Rufus: What's wrong? *He knocks Zechs's hand away and completely removes Zechs's pants.*

Zechs: This is wrong, Rufus.. Please, stop this friend.. You know I can't raise a hand to you, you're like a brother to me..

Rufus ignores Zechs as he turns Zechs onto his side, using his desk as a prop. He quickly inserts his fingers inside Zechs's ass hole.

Zechs: Ahh! Rufus, s-stop..(Oh god.. This feels.. good..But I can't.. He has a family and we'd both be put in the camps..)

Rufus: No, be quiet. *He experiments with his fingers, trying to see if he can make Zechs cry out in pain.*

Zechs: *Bites on his lower lip, shudders when he feels Rufus's fingers hit something inside of him. His long cock twitches against the desk.* (No, how can I be aroused...I mean..I have always had feelings for Rufus, but I didn't think they were like this!)

Rufus: You're not screaming. Am I doing something wrong? *He curls his fingers inside Zechs's body.*

Zechs: You t-told me not to talk, Rufus.. Ugh..Stop it, please! *Groans in pained pleasure as Rufus curls his fingers.*

Rufus: That doesn't include screams of pain. *He removes his fingers from inside Zechs's body and unzips his fly.*

Zechs: Stop, if you enter me with your manhood, then you will be a homosexual! *Tries to moves away, moving his leg to hide his half hard cock.*

Rufus: (He's right...but...) *He moves Zechs back into position.* I'm not a homosexual, damn it! *He quickly enters Zechs with his cock, wanting to cause him pain.*

Zechs: Ahhhhhh! *Cries out in pain as he virgin anus is entered by Rufus's hard cock.* Stop, it burns Rufus! You're..to big!

Rufus: It feels better when it burns, doesn't it? *He begins to thrust into Zechs's ass, giving him no mercy.*

Zechs: N-no! Oh god, st-top! *Groans as he grips tightly onto the desk, gasping loudly when Rufus's cock hits that nub inside his anal walls.* R-ru!

Rufus: (What the hell is his body doing? I can feel him tighten around me!) What...are you doing? *He presses his hand against Zechs's back as he thrusts deeper into Zechs.*

Zechs: I..I don't know..My body..is ohh.. working on it's own, ohh..ahh! *Moans as painful pleasure runs though his body, his cock becoming hard.*

Rufus: (What the hell is going on? He's...he's enjoying this?) Do you like this? *He shifts his position, making his cock unknowingly give Zechs more pleasure than pain.*

Zechs: Uhhhhh...ru! S-stop, I..stop! *Cries out in pleasure, his hands turning white from his grip on the desk.* It's..to much!

Rufus: Answer me, Zechs. Are you a homo like that red haired man? (I want to humiliate him...) *He continues to thrust into Zechs, ignoring his pleads to stop.*

Zechs: No, I'm not! You're..ohh..You're hitting something..in me! Stop! *Moans sweetly as precum drips from his cock, his tight anal channel tighten around Rufus's thrusting cock.* (I..am feeling more pleasure than I do with a woman..)

Rufus: I don't like it when you lie to me, friend. *He completely removes his cock from Zechs's ass hole to see how he reacts.*

Zechs: *Pants heavily as he collapses on the desk, his opening clenches as if trying to get more in as his cock throbs in the need to release.* If..I am a homosexual.. Then so are you, my friend.. For you are fucking me..

Rufus: Fine...you'll be reported. And you'll spend the rest of your days with that red head.

Zechs: I will report you as well, I know you have harassed my men as well. How will that look? I have only been in a homosexual act with you, how many boys have you been with, Rufus? *Looks back, his face covered in sweat.* How will Hilde react when she finds out you sent me away? Or when they send you away..

Rufus: I won't be sent away. And...if those allegations were true about me, why did you continue to be my friend?

Zechs: Because.. I care for you as a brother, Rufus.. You are my oldest friend and even if you do things that make me mad, I still care for you.. And I know they are true, I can have six witnesses against you.. I have been a General longer than you, who do you think they will trust more.. (Please, don't make me do this Rufus..) Think of Else, Alphonse and little Hilde..

Rufus: If you care for me so much as a friend, turn me in. I would like to see the day you turn me in Zechs. *He breathes heavily in frustration as he stares at Zechs laying across his desk.*

Zechs: I will not if you do not do the same.. *Shakily sits up, biting his lip in the pain from Rufus's harsh treatment.* We can act like this never happened.. (But..I really don't want too..)

Rufus: (I try and break him...and he wants to forget it even happened? I can't just...forget about what happened!) I can't do that...but I won't turn you in.

Zechs: Than I won't turn you in.. *Pushes himself off of the desk, grunting as blood runs down his thighs.* You..got me good, my friend..

Rufus: (And...he still calls me a friend after what I've done...Is this shame I feel?) *He stares at the papers strewn over the floor.*

Zechs: Do..you need me for anything else? I believe your wife will be wondering where you are.. *Looks down at the floor.*

Rufus: (Yes...fill the void within me...) She doesn't care where I am, as long as there's a paycheck.

Zechs: Really? I remember..she used to always be on your arm.. *Chuckles softly.* She was jealous of all the time we spent together..

Rufus: She has become spoiled. (How can he chuckle with his clothes halfway off?)

Zechs: Yes.. But she did give you three beautiful children.. And I see how you are with Hilde, Rufus.. I know that Törtchen has your heart in her tiny hands..

Rufus: She's the only thing worth living for. The rest of my children are terrors.

Zechs: They aren't...that bad..To me at least, but Hilde is the little angel of your family..To think she almost didn't make it, you would never know looking at her. (I never seen him so..broken..)

Rufus: Maybe that's why I coddle her? I don't...know anymore.

Zechs: I believe so.. You have a strong bond with her, Rufus.. That girl lives for you, she looks at you like you are the only thing in the world to her..I..wish I had someone like that, you don't know how lucky you are, friend..

Rufus: (Did he used to idolize me? What have I done to him?) Yeah...I'm "lucky"... (And fucked up...)

Zechs: Yes, you have a beautiful home and heirs.. And a Törtchen that sees you as the best thing on this world. *Pulls up his pants, hissing lightly.*

Rufus: Did you used to idolize me, Zechs? (Don't...pity me, tell me the truth.)

Zechs: I idolize the life you had.. I wanted it for myself but I never found my love.. And how..you were always able to do as your ordered, I care too much..

Rufus: *He stares at Zechs with sadness and zips up his pants. He heads for the door of his office to escape the hell he created there.*

Zechs: Ru'... I still care for you, don't..do anything stupid.. Hilde needs you..*Grabs his jacket off the floor and pulls it on.*

Rufus: How...can you still care about me? I thought you would want to kill me, Zechs.

Zechs: I..truely don't know, Rufus.. I just do.. I may get angry at you, alot sometimes but I can't hate you..

Rufus: I don't care if you kill me... You probably think I deserve it. Tell me...what you think.

Zechs: I do, Rufus.. I will not kill you, men change during war.. I would never kill you, do you know what that would do to Hilde? If you don't want to live for yourself, do for her.. She needs you, Ru'.. And I need my best friend..

Rufus: I need you too... *He says in an almost whispered tone.*

Zechs: Oh Ru'.. *Walks over to his broken friend, wrapping his arms around him.* I am always here for you.. When have I not been? This..war is weighing heavily on your mind, but you will get through this..

Rufus: (That...cologne. It...mixes well with his leather.) Zechs...don't do this to me.

Zechs: I..am just trying to be there for my friend.. I will leave you to rest.. Go lay down with Hilde, it will calm you and make her happy to wake up to you..

Rufus: *He stands still with Zechs's arms around him.* I know...but before I go, I need a cigarette.

Zechs; *Releases Rufus and reaches into his pocket and pulls out a pack of cigarettes, handing them to Rufus.* Keep it, there're only five left..

Rufus: *He removes a cigarette from the pack and hands one to Zechs as well. His hands shake as he lights his cigarette with a match.* (I'm...a wreck...)

Zechs: *Lights his own, taking a long hit from it.* Rufus.. Do not let this take you down, you are strong and will get through this.. *Takes another puff.*

Rufus: Nothing is taking me down... *He inhales his cigarette, smoking half of it in one hit.*

Zechs: There's the Rufus I know.. *Takes another hit of his cigarette, begins to button up his jacket.*

Rufus: (I wish that were true.) *He takes a smaller puff of his cigarette and flicks away the ashes.*

Zechs: Go to Hilde tonight, I know she will help you calm your mind.. You are the happiest when you are with her..

Rufus: Stop it, Zechs... *He finishes his cigarette, flicks the butt to the floor and begins to walk away.*

Zechs: I am just looking out for you, Rufus.. I'm your friend..

Rufus: (Why does he keep saying that?) What's wrong with you? (What's wrong with me?)

Zechs: I'm tired and my bottom hurts.. But it will be better after a good nights rest. *Walks over to the door, on the way out.* (I'll give him time to think..)

Rufus: Tomorrow, then. *He walks away from Zechs with a sadness in his step and a heaviness on his shoulders.*

Zechs: Yes...Maybe we can have lunch with Hilde again.. *Looks sadly at his broken friend before he walks to leave Rufus's office and head home.*

Rufus finally comes home early in the morning. He decides to sit on his porch, thinking about what he has done to men over the years.

Rufus: (Does Zechs still think I'm shaming my family?)

Hilde wakes up early as always and walks out to find her Father, frowns when he's not in his room and starts to look around the house. Sees a familiar hair color from the front window and walks to the front door.

Hilde: Daddy? What are you doing out here? *Walks to her father, her slippers making little shuffling sounds as she walks.*

Rufus: Just thinking... How are you this morning, baby?

Hilde: *Smiles as she climbs onto her father's lap, her frilly white night grown covering Rufus's legs.* I'm good; you chased all the monsters away last night!

Rufus: You know there are no such things as monsters. (I'm lying to myself...)

Hilde: They come when you're gone! They give me bad dreams, but you scare them away daddy! *Nuzzles at Rufus's chest, hugging him tightly along with her doll.* You were in my dream.

Rufus: What happened in your dream? Were you a soldier with me?

Hilde: No, we went to the beach! You helped me make a castle and Alphonse didn't ruin it this time! And then we all went and got sweets, I got to ride on your shoulders again!

Rufus: That sounds like a nice dream. Was mommy in the dream? Where is your mother, by the way?

Hilde: Yeah, everyone was in it! I..don't know, she wasn't in your room! I was worried; I couldn't find you or mommy!

Rufus: Let's go check where mommy is... *He picks up Hilde and takes her inside his house. He finds a note on the dining table.* It looks like she went out for the morning, and... (What?) That Uncle Zechs is coming over this morning.

Hilde: Really? *Wiggles happily in Rufus's arms.* I need to get dressed!

Rufus: Go ahead and wake everyone up, and get dressed. *He puts Hilde down so she can get ready.*

Hilde: Okay, daddy! *Hugs Rufus's legs before she runs off to wake up her brother and sister.*

Rufus: (I'll cook breakfast, then...) *He stares at the refrigerator for a few moments, allowing his mind to wander.* (This must be a cruel joke...for my wife to invite Zechs over...)

After ten minutes, Hilde comes running out in a little blue summer dress. Holding little barrettes in her hands.

Hilde: Daddy! Will you help me? Elsa says she's to busy to do my hair.. And Alphonse just laughed!

Rufus: Yes, I'll help, but it won't be as good as your mother puts them in. *He fastens a few barrettes into Hilde's hair.*

Hilde: Thank you, daddy! *Hugs Rufus tightly, nuzzling into his stomach.* Do you like my dress? Mommy said your favorite color was blue!

Rufus: You look pretty, Hilde. *He places a pan on the stove filled with breakfast bratwurst to cook.* (Zechs will probably be here any minute...)

Hilde: *Blushes lightly, playing with the end of her dress.* I changed dolly's clothes too! *Holds up her doll.*

Rufus: She's not wearing her maiden clothing anymore? What did you dress her in? *He looks back at Hilde briefly, wanting to keep an eye on the meat being cooked.*

Hilde: In what your girl um..s-soldiers wear! So she can help you! *Plays with the little hat on her doll, hugging her close.*

Alphonse: She's not going to help against guns, unless Father uses her to block the bullets. *Walks into the kitchen.*

Hilde: Daddy wouldn't do that! It would hurt her! *Holds on tightly to her doll.*

Rufus: Don't talk like that to your little sister.

Else walks down the stairs while primping her hair.

Else: I think Hilde is too old for those dolls!

Alphonse: Yeah, she talks to them more than she does to living people. She's old enough to know they're not real!

Hilde: Dolly is real! *Holds on tighter to her doll, protecting it from her older brother and sister. Looking up at her father.* I..I'm not to old, am I daddy?

Rufus: (How does my wife let them get away with that behavior, talking to their sibling with disrespect...) No, you're not too old, and if you don't like Hilde's doll that much, Alphonse, go play outside or in your room.

Alphonse: You mean I can go outside now? (Yes! I'm tired of being cooped up in the house!)

Hilde: *Stays close to Rufus, hiding her face in her doll.* (Why do they keep picking on me in front of daddy..)

Rufus: If you do go outside, stay where I can see you. And do not go inside the camp again, or you will be paddled.

Alphonse: Fine... *Walks over to his spot at the table and sits down.* Hilde got to go there yesterday.. *Pouts.*

Hilde: I was with Daddy and Uncle Zechs! And it was where all the soldiers eat, not the place daddy says no too!

Rufus: You know what I've told you about going near the...ovens.

Alphonse: I was just playing with my friends! They wanted to see them.. *Stares at the table till he hears the door open and looks up.* Uncle Zechs!

Hilde: *Smiles brightly from behind her doll and runs over to him.* Uncle Zechs! I missed you!

Zechs: *Chuckles softly as he picks Hilde up.* I saw you yesterday, Hilde! But I missed you as well.. *Nods over at Alphonse.* Hello Alphonse, Else.. You look more like your mother everyday..

Rufus: (Great...he's here...)

Else: Thank you. *She primps her hair and fixes her dress.* Do you think Hilde is too old for dolls, Uncle Zechs?

Zechs: (Yes, just like your mother..) Not really..My sister still has dolls like Hilde's.. Some of them are worth a good amount of money now.. *Walks over and sits down in an empty chair, letting Hilde sit on his lap.*

Hilde: See! I can have dolly for as long as I want! *Smiles at her father, making the dolls hands salute.*

Rufus: Have you thought of a name for your doll?

Hilde: Yes, her name is Sahika!

Zechs: That is a good name.. *Pats Hilde's back.*

Rufus: It has the same first letter as mommy's name.

Hilde: Yep! It's my favorite letter! *Giggles softly as she feels Zechs's pats.* Is the food ready, daddy?

Alphonse: (It's not far.. She gets all of Father's attention..)

Rufus: Not yet, I know all of you are hungry. And I see Silke has already started the coffee. Have you had my wife's coffee, Zechs?

Zechs: I don't believe I have.. I will have to get me a cup.. *Smiles down at Hilde and stands up, setting Hilde down in the seat.*

Alphonse: You don't need anymore food, Hilde! You're fat enough as is!

Hilde: No, I'm n-not! *Holds on tightly to her doll.*

Rufus: I'm about to send you to your room, Alphonse. Now, quiet.

Alphonse: *Goes silent, glaring at his younger sister.* (All Father does now is yell at me, he never takes me anywhere! It's always her!)

Hilde: *Hides her face in Sahika, waiting for her father to come sit down.*

Zechs: (He doesn't need this..I wish Silke would discipline those two, she knows Rufus has been working over time..) *Pours himself a cup of coffee.*

Rufus: I know you're glaring at Hilde. Stop it. *He turns and rotates the brats, cooking them evenly.*

Alphonse: *Crosses his arms and looks down at the table, waiting for his food.*

Hilde: *Shyly looks up from her doll, wishing her father was done and would come sit down next to her.*

Zechs: (I'll try and help him..) *Walks over to the table and sits down in the chair across from Elsa.* How is school coming, Else?

Else: It's going well, Uncle Zechs. I get all good marks.

Rufus: She has been doing well...Oh, You're also welcome to some Weizenbier in the refrigerator, Zechs.

Zechs: That is good, keep at it and you will be the smarter than me in a few years.. *Chuckles softly.* Thank you, Rufus.. I will have some after we eat..

Rufus: There...it's done. *He places the pan on the kitchen table and gives each of his children two large sausages a piece. He also pours coffee for all of his children and himself.*

Alphonse: *Digs into his meal, stabbing it with his fork before he picks it up and takes bites.* Mmm!

Hilde: *Lays Sahika on her lap as she grabs her small fork and knife and begins to try and cut her meal.* It smells good, daddy!

Zechs: *Takes a sip of his coffee, watching the children as they eat.* (He is a good father..)

Else: You forgot the bread, dad! *She gets up from the table and brings a loaf of bread to the table.*

Rufus: So I did...Thank you Else. (For doing something nice.)

Zechs: *Looks over at Hilde, seeing her having trouble cutting her sausage.* Do you need help, Hilde?

Alphonse: (She's so weak! Why does Father love her so much? She can't do anything!) *Stares at her plate, knowing if he does anything he'll be sent to his room.*

Hilde: I can do it! *Sticks her tongue out in concentration as she keeps trying to cut it.* (I want to show Daddy I can do it!)

Rufus: Would you like bread with that, Törtchen?

Hilde: Yes, daddy! *Reaches for the bread but her arms are to small to get at it, a cute pout covers her face.*

Zechs: *Smiles softly and pushes the bread closer to her.* There you go..

Hilde: Thank you, Uncle Zechs! *Rips herself off some before she sets the rest back down.*

Alphonse: (She even gets a nickname...)

Rufus: I hope your mother brings home some Brötchen. The Wurst isn't the same without it.

Else: Do you know why mommy didn't take me shopping?

Rufus: I haven't seen your mother today. I couldn't tell you.

Hilde: It still tastes good, daddy! I love when you cook! *Smiles at Rufus before she pops a piece of sausage in her mouth, humming happily at the taste.*

Zechs: Oh, I have gifts to give all of you after you eat..

Alphonse: Presents? I can't wait, Uncle Zechs!

Hilde: Really? Thank you, Uncle Zechs! *Smiles brightly, her little cheeks plump with food.*

Rufus: You have to eat all of your food before Uncle Zechs gives out any presents.

Zechs: Yes and do not hurry and finish and end up making your stomachs upset..

Alphonse: That only happens to Hilde! We have stronger stomachs.

Hilde: *Blushes as she looks down, remembers all the times she's gotten sick after eating.* (I keep trying to make my tummy better..)

Rufus: Stop talking like that about your sister, Alphonse.

Alphonse: But it's true.. *Mumbles as he looks down, becoming quiet as he eats.*

Zechs: (Why does he hate her so much? I never hated my sister like that..) *Takes one of the last few sausages and begins to eat it.*

Rufus: No, how would you like it if Else talked about you like that?

Alphonse: I'd ignore her like I always do!

Hilde: (They're nice to each other..) *Nibbles on her piece of bread, scooting closer to Rufus.*

Rufus: That's better... *He takes a sip of coffee to energize his tired soul.*

Alphonse: *Finishes his meal and looks over at Rufus.* Can I go into the living room and wait for the others to finish?

Rufus: No, wait for everyone to finish, then Zechs will give everyone their presents.

Hilde: I'm finished, daddy! I can't eat the last one, my tummy's full!

Zechs: I imagine with all the bread you ate.. *Chuckles softly as he sips his coffee.*

Rufus: We'll save that one for mommy when she gets home.

Else: I'm finished too!

Alphonse: Yes! Can we go now?

Hilde: Yeah, can we daddy? *Wiggles in her seat, excited about getting a gift.*

Zechs: I'm ready if your father is.. *Finishes his coffee.*

Rufus: You can have your presents now.

Alphonse: Yes! *Jumps out of his chair, pushing it in before he runs to the living room.*

Hilde: *Gets out of her chair and grabs Rufus's hand.* Are you going to come too, Daddy?

Zechs: I will head to the living room.. *Stands up and bows slightly to Rufus and Hilde before he heads to the living room.*

Else: I hope I get the most expensive present! *She walks into the living room after Zechs.*

Rufus: Not right now, Hilde. After Zechs gives you your presents, he and I have to talk alone. Tell him I'll be outside.

Hilde: Oh...okay daddy.. *Gives Rufus a tight hug.* I love you daddy, thank you for the food!

Rufus: You can go ahead in the living room. *He gives Hilde a kiss on the cheek before he heads outside to wait for Zechs.*

Hilde: Alright, daddy! *Runs to the living room, excited about her gift.*

Zechs gives Rufus's children their gifts. For Else, he gives her a brush and comb set made from ivory, for Alphonse, Zechs gives him an army knife. Hilde, perhaps, gets the best present of them all; a tea set for her new doll. Zechs then heads outside to find Rufus.

Zechs: They all went to their rooms with their gifts.. *Walks out and stands beside Rufus.*~

Rufus: Good, thank you.

Zechs: You're welcome.. I have too much money to spend just on myself.. I love to give them gifts..

Rufus: I'm sure they were happy to have them.

Zechs: Yes, they were.. I..hope you don't mind I gave Alphonse an army knife.. It's pretty dull so he shouldn't be able to hurt anything with it.. I was going to let you sharpen it when he is old enough..

Rufus: No, I don't mind. I've given him knives before.

Zechs: Alright, I didn't want to over step my bounds.. *Looks out at Rufus's garden.* It is beautiful here..

Rufus: It's my wife's work...Zechs...I don't know what to say to you.

Zechs: Do you wish me to leave? I..don't want to make you uncomfortable..

Rufus: No. I've...repented to what I have done.

Zechs: That is good, Rufus. That is the first step, you already have my forgiveness.. *Turns to face Rufus.*

Rufus: I still don't know why you would remain friends with me after...last night's incident.

Zechs: Because I don't want to throw away years of friendship for one bad thing you've done to me.. And.. *Chuckles softly.* I don't have very many friends left..

Rufus: I wanted to hurt you, break you, Zechs. That doesn't bother you?

Zechs: It..does, but I know that wasn't really you.. This..place, this war changed you.. I knew if I stayed with you, maybe I could help you get back to how you were.. *A light blush covers his cheeks.* And..you didn't make it hurt that much..

Rufus: Maybe...we shouldn't talk about this in the front of the house. *He begins to walk around the side of his house.* (It...didn't hurt? What did I do to him last night? Oh...God.)

Zechs: Yes..*Follows after Rufus.* You did make me bleed though.. But I can tell you hate yourself for that, have you gotten any sleep my friend?

Rufus: No, I have not... And I don't believe I'll have any sleep tonight.

Zechs: Rufus, you can't do that to yourself.. Please, it will hurt me more than last night if you do not rest.

Rufus: I'll try, but I can't promise anything. (What the hell is he talking about...hurting him more than last night? Did he really...like what I did?)

Zechs: Have Hilde sleep in your bed tonight, I know she will help you sleep.. She always calms you.. *Walks into the garden with Rufus, smelling the rose bush.*

Rufus: She doesn't help so much anymore.

Zechs: What do you mean? She has always been your Törtchen..

Rufus: She's not a baby anymore. She will eventually want to sleep by herself. And I don't want to wake her up in the night if I can't sleep. I need...stability.

Zechs: She will always be your baby and for now she does want to sleep with you, she would every night if she could.. But I understand, I..just want you to get some rest now.. Till we can find something else..

Rufus: Something else? What would that something else be?

Zechs: I'm not sure yet, but we will find something..

Rufus: At this point, I don't care what it is. *He watches Zechs walk by, trying not to think about seeing his body from last night.*

Zechs: You need something like Hilde, someone you can lie with and get comfort from.. I would say your wife, but I know she can't give that comfort..

Rufus: She hasn't "slept" with me since Hilde has been born.

Zechs: That is..I'm sorry, Rufus.. (Is she scared she could get pregnant again? And it will be worse than when Hilde was born? But than why not use something to prevent it?)

Rufus: I...know she's scared of what may happen. But, look at me, Zechs! I must not have the manly charm I used to have.

Zechs: No, other than you look tired now you are still as handsome as when you two met.. Talk to her about it tonight, tell her you need it..

Rufus: I'll see what she says. (He's right...I need someone to comfort me.)

Zechs: I hope she says yes.. If not, we will have to come up with something else Ru'.. *Picks the reddest rose and walks back over to Rufus.* Here, give this to her.. No woman can say no to you when you have a rose..

Rufus: Zechs, what are you doing? *He takes the rose carefully.* I feel like... (I feel like you're giving this rose to me...)

Zechs: I am trying to make sure you get the comfort and release you need, give her the rose and your famous smile and she'll go weak at the knees.

Rufus: I feel like you're giving this rose to me.

Zechs: *A light blush runs over his cheeks.* I..guess I am in away, but it is for you to give to her..

Rufus: I can give her another rose later, you know that, Zechs. *He stares at the rose with a mix of emotions running through him.*

Zechs: Then give it to Hilde, you know she will treasure it.. (I shouldn't of done that.. But..I do want to give him the rose..)

Rufus: I'll pick another for her...You picked this one for me.

Zechs: I..am sorry if...I don't know what I am doing either, Ru'.. * Straightens out his jacket.*

Rufus: It's alright. Then...I have to ask you, Zechs. What did I do to you last night...if you weren't in pain?

Zechs: I..don't know.. If felt.. better than being inside a woman, you would hit something in me and my body would go on fire..

Rufus: I never knew such a thing was possible. (But...if he liked it...it means we were breaking the law last night.)

Zechs: Me either..It..scared me, to tell the truth.. You did bring me pain, but at time the pleasure took over..

Rufus: It scared me as well...for the first time. (And...I want to try it again.)

Zechs: So..what are we to do? *Sighs, sitting in the bench in the middle of the garden.*

Rufus: I won't turn you in. When I told you at first that I would turn you in...I wasn't all there...

Zechs: Thank you.. I..am not attracted to any other male and never have been.. I will not turn you in either, I could never do that to you or your family..

Rufus: What about me? (Is he attracted to me?)

Zechs: I..have always thought you were a handsome man.. I never felt anything more before last night.. *Looks down at his feet.* You..are disgusted with me, are you not? (Have..I just lost my friend?)

Rufus: I don't know what to think anymore. I...figured that's how you felt.

Zechs: I can fight away these weird..feelings, I do not want to lose you as my friend..

Rufus: I...just...don't want us to be accused of anything.

Zechs: I don't want that either.. What.. do you want to do? I will do whatever you wish..

Rufus: (We can experiment...if he's willing. He said anything.) Experiment with me, Zechs.

Zechs: What...would you like to experiment with, Ru'? *Shyly looks up.* (He..wants to try something?)

Rufus: I'm not sure. Is there something on your mind in particular?

Zechs: Would..you..can we kiss? *Licks his lips, always wanting to taste Rufus's lips.*

Rufus: (I wasn't really thinking that he...was serious! But...I can't say no.) We can do that. *He tilts Zechs's face towards his own and lands a rough kiss on Zechs's lips.* Zechs: Mmmm.. *Moans softly into the kiss, letting Rufus take control.* Ru'... *Cups Rufus's cheek.*

Rufus: How was that? Do you want more? *He keeps his eyes on Zechs's attractive lips.*

Zechs: It was amazing.. *Licks his lips, tasting Rufus on them.* Yes, if you're up to it..

Rufus: *He gives Zechs a few more steamy kisses. His hands wander, exploring Zechs's chest.* You still taste like my wife's coffee.

Zechs: As do you.. God, you're better at kissing than any woman I have been with.. Mm.. *Arches his chest into Rufus's hands.*

Rufus: Then...I don't care if I get caught anymore. *He moves to sit in Zechs's lap.*

Zechs: I..can't go to far..I need to be heading to the camp soon, one of us need to be there and I know you will want to stay here till your wife gets home.. *Moans softly as he wraps his arms around Rufus's waist.*

Rufus: You'll be back in time, but do what you want to do. You can tell me.

Zechs: Can we..stroke each other? *Blushes as he feels his cock harden at the thought.*

Rufus: You don't have to ask me like you're shy. I can feel your response. *He leans his head against Zechs's shoulder as he unzips both himself and Zechs.*

Zechs: I..do not want to say something and scare you off.. Mmm! *Looks down in lust at Rufus's cock, presses his own cock against Rufus. Shudders at the feel of Rufus's silky hard length.* You..feel so..good!

Rufus: *He kisses what little skin is exposed of Zechs's neck. He brushes the head of his cock against Zechs's cock.* How much have you wanted this?

Zechs: Mm..I dreamed..of this last night.. Ohh! *Moans softly at he kisses, opens his hand up to grab onto Rufus's cock along with his own meaty one and begins to stroke them together.*

Rufus: I...shouldn't have forced myself on you last night. *He watches as Zechs strokes both of their cocks together.*

Zechs: We can't change the past, Ru'.. We can only learn from it.. God, I..can feel you twitching in my hand! *Moans as he rests his forehead against Rufus's shoulder as he begins to pant.*

Rufus: *He slowly moves his hips, causing his cock to rub against Zechs's hand and cock.* That's what you do to me.

Zechs: You..do the same to me.. Yes, just like that.. Mm.. *Reaches his other arm behind Rufus, grabbing onto his ass to push him even closer as he moves his hand faster.*

Rufus: Mm, you're much more willing than I ever thought you would be. *He moans softly as precum dips onto Zechs's cock.*

Zechs: So are you.. Ah..oh.. Love..your Mmm! *Groans as he feels Rufus's precum land on his cock, his own begins to flow from his cock as he slips his hand down Rufus's tight pants. Slowly circling his tight virgin entrance before he enters it.* Oh..So hot!

Rufus: (He...entered me, but I don't want to stop him. Does...that make me a criminal?) It's...there, Zechs. Do you want me to release? *He moans softly as more precum lands on Zechs's cock.*

Zechs: Yes, I do..I want to see the look of pleasure on your face.. *Moans softly as he moves his finger around inside Rufus, looking for that spot that will make him see stars.*

Rufus: Right...there, Zechs. *He looks into Zechs's eyes with his newly found pleasure.*

Zechs: Amazing, is it not? Now..you know the pleasure I felt last night, my Ru'.. *Rubs over the bump inside Rufus, loving the look on his face as he increases the pressure.* You look...beautiful.. *Strokes both of their cocks faster, feeling his release coming.*

Rufus: (I...love this feeling inside of me...) Oh...God. *He releases on Zechs's hand and cock. He breathes fast and hard, trying to catch his breath.*

Zechs: (He looks..amazing..) *Moans at the feeling of Rufus's cum land on his cock, his own release shoots out and covers Rufus's cock. Pants heavily against Rufus's shoulder as he tries to catch his breath.*

Rufus: God...Zechs...We released together.

Zechs: We did.. *Slowly pulls his finger out of Rufus's anus, rests the arm against Rufus's hip.* I..will have to change before head to the camp, I am covered in our..release.

Rufus: Mm...*He licks some of Zechs's release from his fingers.* It's...too bad you have to change.

Zechs: God, Ru'.. Are you trying to get me aroused again? *Chuckles softly as he leans back.*

Rufus: I'm not trying to. Sorry, I know you have to go.

Zechs: I wish I could stay.. But one of us needs to be there.. *Softly kisses Rufus.* I will see you at dinner, my Ru'..

Rufus: I'm looking forward to it. Maybe tonight...we can sneak away together. Somewhere...so we can be alone.

Zechs: Yes, you can come to my place... I let the servants stop working at eight.. They will be in their rooms so we won't be bothered..

Rufus: You're...serious. What are you planning to do with me?

Zechs: Whatever you want to do.. * Puts himself back into his pants, fastening them before he gives Rufus a kiss.* I..should be going..

Rufus: Yes, I know. *He zips his pants as well and fixes Zechs's jacket.*

Zechs: Go speed time with your family, I'll watch over the camp.. *Picks Rufus up and sets him down next to him on the bench before be stands up.* I will look for you at dinner, but I'll understand if Hilde wants you to eat here..

Rufus: I'll be at your house, sooner or later.

Zechs: Alright.. I will have a glass of Weizenbier for you.. *Gives Rufus one last kiss before he walks away.* (That..was amazing, I really hope he doesn't become scared..)

Rufus: *He kisses Zechs and longs for more as he watches Zechs leave.* Don't forget, you're welcome to bier from my refrigerator.

Zechs: I have some at my home, I will not take yours from you.. *Smiles softly at Rufus before he walks out of the garden, heading to his home.*

Rufus: I'll see you... *He smiles at Zechs as he shakes Zechs's hand and heads inside.*

Zechs: As I will you, my Ru'.. *Looks back as Rufus enters his house, sighs softly as he walks to his home.* (I can't wait to see him again..)

Rufus walks into his house, frowns at how quiet it is. Used to Hilde's sweet giggles filling it, walks up the stairs and stops at the first room he passes, Else's room.

Else: Yes, dad? *Keeps brushing her hair with the new ivory hairbrush, looking at herself in the mirror.*

Rufus: It's almost too quiet...

Else: I like it! I heard yells earlier; thankfully it's gone quiet again. Did you see that Uncle Zechs got me?

Rufus: I see...did you tell him thank you?

Else: Of course, I'm not a heathen like those things in the camp! *Keeps brushing her hair.* Oh, I think Alphonse was teasing Hilde again.

Rufus: I've told him to stop. *He sighs.* I'm going to check on Alphonse and Hilde.

Rufus leaves his eldest daughters room and goes to check on his little , frowning when he doesn't see her there.

Rufus: Törtchen? Hilde?

A whimper comes from under the bed, the soft sounds of crying escape.

Hilde: (If daddy sees, he'll hate me!) *Curls up tightly under that bed, softly crying.*

Rufus: Hilde, come out, Törtchen.

Hilde: N-no.. Y-you'll hate m-m-meee! I'm..u-ugly! *Begins to cry harder, her foot accidently kicks the bed skirt.*

Rufus: What are you talking about, Törtchen? Come out and see me.

Hilde: H-he said you w-would! You'll s-send me to the b-bad place! *Unable to ignore what Rufus asks, she slowly scouts out with her feet out first. Finally exposing her whole body.*

Rufus: Törtchen! Who cut off your hair? *He stares at shock at Hilde's hair, with all of her curls cut off unevenly.*

Hilde: *Lets out a sob as she tries to cover her head, starting to head back under the bed.* D-don't hate m-me daddy! P-please don't send m-me a-w-way!

Rufus: I'm not going to send you away, but who cut your hair, baby? *He sits on Hilde's bed.* Sit next to your dad, here.

Hilde: H-he said y-you only loved me c-cause of my h-hair.. T-that you'll hate me n-now, ign-nore me like a j-jude! *Keeps crying as she shakily climbs onto the bed.*

Rufus: Who? Did your brother cut off your hair?

Hilde: *Nods her head as she crawls ontp Rufus's lap, crying onto his jacket.* P-please don't h-hate me,daddy! I..I l-love you! Please! *Begs her father as her tears begin to soak Rufus's jacket.*

Rufus: I don't hate you, but I'm angry at your brother. Don't worry, Törtchen. Your hair will grow back, the same as it was before.

Hilde: B-but I'm u-ugly now, you w-won't..want to s-spend time with me! I..I'm not pretty anym-more for you to show off.. *Reaches her little arm up and touches a place that the knife got to close to her skin, making a bald spot.*

Rufus: That's not true. Once mommy evens out your hair, you'll look like a little soldier. Would you like that?

Hilde: B-but..I'm a g-girl.. I..won't be y-your T-törtchen anymore.. *Sniffs as he holds onto Rufus tighter.*

Rufus: There are female soldiers in Das Reich. I can even buy a Nazi uniform for you, my Törtchen. You'll be daddy's little guard.

Hilde: R-really? E-even if I'm n-not pretty anym-more? *Sniffs again as she looks up at Rufus, her eyes red from crying.*

Rufus: You're pretty all the time, Törtchen

Hilde: I..I love you, daddy.. C-can I sleep in your bed tonight? Please? I..I'll be good!

Rufus: You can sleep in my bed. Now come with me, I must discipline your brother.

Hilde: I..d-don't want to see him, daddy! He'll be mad at me f-for telling you! *Holds on tightly to Rufus as he stands up, hiding her face in his neck.*

Rufus: I'll have you know that he will be paddled for cutting your hair. He'll never think about doing it again. Unfortunately, your mother doesn't know how to discipline.

Hilde: S-she lets Alphonse do whatever he wants.. You've..never paddled me, daddy. Does it hurt?

Rufus: It hurts, but it teaches consequences for bad choices. I've never had to paddle you because you're well behaved. But, I won't hesitate to paddle you if I have to.

Hilde: I-I won't, daddy! I promise! *Nuzzles into Rufus's neck.* I d-don't...Why does he h-hate me, daddy?

Rufus: I don't know why he's mean to you, but I do know that he needs proper discipline. *He picks up Hilde and carries her along to his and Silke's room to retrieve the wooden paddle.*

Hilde: T-that's big, daddy.. It's s-scary! *Hides her face, not wanting to look at the paddle.* (I'm sorry, Alphonse..)

Rufus: I won't hit him that hard. It'll be hard enough to teach him right from wrong. *He enters Alphonse's room with the paddle in his hand.* Why did you cut Hilde's hair?

Alphonse: *Freezes at his father's voice.*(She told? She can't do anything right!) She was being annoying and saying how you were going to take her to dinner with the soldiers again!

Rufus: How would you like it if Hilde cut your hair? You will be disciplined. *He lets Hilde down and shows Alphonse the paddle.*

Alphonse: I'm not a girl, I don't c-care.. *Looks in horror at the paddle.* No Father, please! It..it was a joke! *Starts to back away from his father.*

Hilde: *Quickly covers her eyes, not wanting to see it.*

Rufus: (Look at him, he needs to become stronger. He's not used to discipline because my wife never teaches him while I'm away.) The laws of this household need to be enforced. Now, turn around.

Alphonse: Y-yes, father.. *Turns around, holding on tightly to his pants.* (She's the reason this is happening! I should be Father's favorite, I'm the only boy!)

Rufus: Thank you for listening. *He hits Alphonse on the behind with the wooden paddle, hard enough to teach him the correct values.*

Hilde: *Tears start to fall again when she hears her brother's cry of pain.* D-daddy..

Alphonse: Owww! No more! *Jumps away after the hit, rubbing his bottom.*

Rufus: Now, say you're sorry to Hilde.

Alphonse: *Looks down, not wanting to look at his father or little sister.* I'm sorry, Hilde...

Hilde: O-okay.. I forgive you, Alphonse.. *Sniffs as she walks up behind Rufus's legs.*

Rufus: Now...Alphonse, do you know why I paddled you? *He sits down on Alphonse's bed.*

Alphonse: For cutting Hilde's hair?

Rufus: Yes, that is why I paddled you.

Alphonse: C-can I go outside now? Adam was going to come over..

Rufus: (Well...I do have to spend more time with my children. I think I have something tomorrow for him...) Yes, but tomorrow, would you like to take a ride in a panzer?

Alphonse: R-really, father? You mean it? *Looks up excitedly.*

Rufus: Yes, I mean it. I can show you how to drive it.

Alphonse: Oh, thank you father! *Runs up and hugs him tightly before he runs out of his room, slipping a bit on some of Hilde's hair on his floor.*

Rufus: I think he learned his lesson, Hilde.

Hilde: *Nods and climbs onto Rufus's lap, yawning softly.* C-crying made me tired, daddy..

Rufus: Go ahead and take a nap. I have to sweep the floor so your mother won't get too angry. (Although her anger is useless, she can't even discipline the children. I can't always do it by myself.)

Hilde: But I don't want to leave you, daddy..W-what if you leave before I wake up? A-and mommy never gets mad at Alphonse..

Rufus: Uncle Zechs wanted me to stay home today. Go and take your nap.

Hilde: Really? Okay.. Can you tuck me in? Mommy does when I have my naps..

Rufus: I can do it, although I may not be as good as mommy when she tucks you in. *He takes Hilde to her room.*

Hilde: Of course you will be, daddy! You're good at everything you do! *Nuzzles Rufus's chest before he places her down on the bed, takes her shoes off before she crawls under her blankets.*

Rufus: Have a good nap, Hilde. *He kisses Hilde's forehead as he surrounds her tiny body with the cotton blankets.*

Hilde: Mmh, I love you daddy.. *Sighs in comfort as she snuggles her face into the pillow, her small chest raises slowly as she falls asleep.

Rufus: (She still looks like a little angel.)

~We hoped you liked it! We just wanted you to understand Rufus a little more^^~

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