Forbiden love

Disclaimer: you had to see this comming. Hojo isnt mine , i dont want him anyways. I have enough with Turk Vincent :D lol Hojo (and Vincent for that matter..) and Jenova belongs to Squaresoft ( Square-enix ? ) and i just wanted to write something about how sick i see him.

Author's note : oh man...

Second note: .... i am french.. my english isn't perfect. I know this very well, but i try as best i can not to let it interfere. :(

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Jenova...

Oh , this name brings so many different emmotions.

For some it's fear, for some it's hope, for me it's desire.

This creature, so perfect compared to us, humans. She chose me, wants me, allows me to use her.

I took her cells and put them in so many peoples now, trying to recreate the perfect human.

Lucrecia, my wife, or more ex-wife.Too weak to withstand the cells.She died when giving birth to my son, Sephiroth.

Of all those who received the cells, he was the closest one to Jenova. Powerfull, intelligent, he was everything. But even in his splendor, he'll never be Jenova. He doesn't talk to me, i am nothing for him. He is to become a God, and he hates his creator.

It doesn't matter, only Jenova has any importance to my eyes. My whole life is dedicated to her, to my researches, to my projects.

I get up and walk around in the long and empty halls of the labs, in the Shinra building. I am the sole person here, as always at this time of the night. I prefer working alone. I obey no rule but my own. No one would even dare what i do.

Mindlessly, like if possessed, i linger in the halls. I hear whispers, deep within my mind. Those whispers echoes in the halls, leading me to this room, where i hid her. I feel her within me, around me, she is my everything. No one could ever understand and i wish for no one to even try. They may realise that no human can ever give what she can give and take her away from me.

I stop in front of a thick metalic door and slide my card in the lock. This is the room where only i can go, where only she can be. I can hear her better now, she calls out for me. Her voice is as soft as silk, barely audible, and i, following it's graciousness like a mindless slave, walk to her.

I have enlocked her, safely, inside a transparent pod. She cannot survive well in our enviroment. It's almost out of sheer miracle that we found her, enclosed in ice, so many years ago. Destiny.. she was meant to be mine.

I put my hand on the glass, feeling her through it. Rarely i have put my hands on her but those few times i did are fresh in my memory. I remember everything of her, from her scent to her touch.

"....hojo.."
"you are mine"
" my slave ...."
" hojo..."

Her whispers intertwine in my mind as much has the sound of her breathing. She is alive but trapped in this glassed prison. She is mine, i am hers, what else can be said?. A few days ago, only then did i have the will to take some of her cells and put the them in my own body. Ever since then, she is closer than i could ever have imagined. I can feel her better, she entered my dreams.

"hojo...."

I close my eyes, laying my forehead on the glass and i listen, listen to her breathing, to her calling out my name. It's overwhelming, slightly more than i can take. It's beautifull, almost sensual.

I can no longer resist her and i move my other hand around on my neck, caressing it as i would love her to caress me.

" ...You want me Hojo.."
"You desire me"
"...Hojo..."

Yes i want you, i wish i could have you, but i cannot. I cannot take you away from your glass prison.

I feel strange, as if i lose control of myself. I try to stop caressing my neck, but i cannot. My hand move on it's own now. Is that you Jenova? is that you who is doing this?

" ... Hojo .... you are mine"
" I am in you now ..."
"you cannot resist me"
"My slave , my puppet"

Yes, take me Jenova, i give myself to you.

I lose control of my other arm, which joins in with my left one. I can feel her hands through mine. I take off my labcoat and drop it on the floor, soon followed with my shirt. The room is cold but my thoughts are far away from there. My hands trail on my chest, on my stomach, my forehead is still on the glass of the pod, holding me up.

Her voice haunts me, taunts me. I feel her travel in my veins and i soon find myself unable to stand up. I drop to my knees, moaning of pleasure, as i feel her sending shivers down my spine, down my hips.

My pants become constraining and i unbutton them, taking them down to my knees, setting my manhood free.

She is there, still in her pod, and i know she looks at me. Shamelessly, i offer myself to her sight and close my eyes again. My hands part and my left one goes to my face while my right one reaches out for my erection.I hisses of pleasure as soon as the tip of my finger touches it.

"...you like this Hojo?"
"You are mine , mine only"
" My beautifull puppet.."

I wrap my fingers around it and slowly moves downward. Shivers intensifies at my touch and i clench my left hand on my shoulder, leaving finger marks on it. Jenova still controls my hands and my left one leaves my shoulder for my nipple. I grab if between my fingers and toy with it, still moaning.

My right hand moves up and down my shaft at a painfully slow pace and i find myself begging for more, trusting my hips upward.

I lose balance and find myself laying on my side, on the floor. The difference of temperature between me and the floor made me gasp, but it was such a sweet torture...

I turn on my back and kick my pants and shoes off. Enough with constrictions. I spread my legs to allow my hand to move faster, my breathing matching it.I hear Jenova laugh darkly, as my hand keeps on moving with a better pace.

My other one still toys around with my nipples and i can't resist calling out her name.

Jenova... never have i desired someone as much as you, not even Lucrecia. Never has anyone brought down to me, passion in it's purest form. My life is around you, my life is yours.

"It's always been mine"
. " You are my possession Hojo"
" I am in you now , i control you .."

My back archs as my hand moves faster on my erection, sending waves after waves of extasy throughout my body.I wish she'd take me whole, i nearly wish for her to hurt me. She must have heard this because my left hand's finger felt like if digging in my body, scratching me. It will definitly leave marks.

My beauty , if only you could live outside this cage of yours. I would take you whole, i would make you mine.But right now , i can only give myself to you like this. Watch me my love, i have no shame in front of you.

My right hand crisps, keeps on moving faster and pounds on the base of my manhood, and i find myself whimpering her name. Jenova.. Jenova! Make me yours! Take me, hurt me, break me!

I feel like i am close to release, very close, and with a few fast and painfull strokes i let go , screaming her name. Jenova!!

I regain control of my hands and i lifelessly lay on the floor, panting.

"You are all mine Hojo ... "
" You are mine.."
"All mine.."

I can only weakly nod as an answer. I willingly gave myself to you before, and i always will.

Slowly , my breathing calms down and i pass my left hand on my forehead. Sweat built up and my fingers are damp. No woman has ever done this to me. This is why i love Jenova so much. We cannot touch, yet she bring me there, where i've only been in my wildest dreams.

I pick my labcoat up and wipe myself on it, before dressing up. It's a shame those moments are never long. My time as a celibate really took the best out of me. Age too, maybe. But it doesn't matter. Jenova is here, with me. She is in this room where only i can see her.

I look at her, once again, and pass my hand on the glass, feeling her through it: Her arms, her face, her neck, her breast. One day, one day i will find how to allow you to live outside of your pod my beloved. I will find how to get us closer once again.

I walk away, slowly, throw my labcoat in the trash and leave the room. I know i will be back here soon enough, and i hope the next time will be the good one.