Kitten

An: The song below belongs to me and its called Painful Silence. The characters however do not belong to me… oh hell… wish they did though…

Kitten

We Could Be Gone

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My ears are blinded by your spell
My heart is dragged down a love anew
I feel my soul seeping, drifting away

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I felt numb. There was nothing inside me anymore. Sure Shiva, Siren and Alexander reside within me, but there is nothing. They don’t talk to me anymore. Rinoa has done something to me. I can’t refuse her, can’t ignore her, can’t do anything that displeases her. It’s like I’ve become a mindless puppet. What am I supposed to do now. The fearless leader fallen to possessed mindless puppet. Seifer is back, but I can’t say two words to him without feeling a jerk on my soul, as if something is devouring it.

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I am unable to cope
unable to breathe
unable to scream I don't love

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She tells everyone how in love we are. How much we understand each other. It is so sickening and I can’t do a thing. Every time I try to tell someone, it clogs up in the back of my throat and I can’t say a single word.

“Squall?” I turn to find Seifer standing behind me and I tip my head in acknowledgement to him.

“Don’t say anything. Look up for yes and down for no, ok?” Watching Seifer, I realise that when he said up he looked down and down was him looking up. I smiled, grateful that this compulsion only understood what it heard.

“Is there something controlling you?” The compulsion instantly forced me to look down, which I was grateful for. Seifer let out a soft curse and waved a piece of paper at me with a pen.

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My arms are forced around you
My head is shoved down to lovin' you
I feel my soul shattering, millions of pieces

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It’s been four months since I ‘spoke’ with Seifer about what was controlling me. We resorted to walking to the beach to talk. He’d write a short message in the sand and I could reply. My soul kept being devoured when I spent time with him though. It felt as if I only had small parts of me left.

‘What’s bothering you?’ Seifer’s latest message made me smile and I looked up at him, as the wind whipped my bangs around my face.

‘It feels like something is eating my soul every time I’m near you.’ Seifer hissed beside me, grasping my chin in his large palm and tipping my head up to look at him.

“We’d best get back then. Thanks for walking with me.” I smiled faintly and followed behind him back to Garden. He would take point and I would be the rear guard in case monsters decided to challenge the two of us, thinking they’d found an easy meal.

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I am unable to live
unable to love
unable to yell I hate you

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The Compulsion is getting stronger. I can’t walk towards Seifer anymore. Whenever it is mentioned that he is near, instantly I am forced to leave the room. If it hears his voice, I am instantly spun around and marched away. Seifer is very patient, leaving notes for me in inconspicuous places for me to find.

‘Hey, train with me at 4? I’ll be in the training centre. Seifer.’

I laughed to myself and scooped up my gunblade, willing to meet him. As I stepped into the training centre, everything seemed to close in around me. I spun and found Rinoa confronting Seifer.

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My heart has fallen through the floor
My hands are bound by you, useless tools
I feel the tears rising up again inside

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“Rinoa?” She turned and smiled at me, her eyes glowing a weird colour. Seifer shoved her and I felt something snap inside me. I sagged down to the ground, resting my chin on my up drawn knees. Rinoa spun, wings bursting from her back as Seifer lifted Hyperion to meet her. I had the strangest urge to charge in and defend her, but I felt petrify land on me and looked up to find Seifer smirking at me as he dodged a thunder from Rinoa. I continued to watch the battle, unable to move as they fought strenuously.

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I am unable to fight
unable to flee
unable to say I want to die

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Seifer stood over Rinoa’s slain body and then turned to release me from the petrify. I gasped and sighed with pleasure.

“Free at last.” I leapt to my feet and dove at Seifer, smashing my lips to his, happy to finally be able to embrace him. His shocked gasp merely gave me access into the soft warm wet cavern of his mouth and I tangled my tongue with his.

“Mine.” Seifer growled lowly in my ear when I moved to suck at his neck. I let my teeth rake his skin, leaving red marks from my teeth. He gave a low growl and slammed me hard against his body, his hands clasped tightly around my hips. I ground my erection into his and revelled in the groan that crept from his throat as I continued to suckle on his skin.

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My hands are free, lifting my heart
My soul is re-pieced, I can fly again
I feel loose, breaking your spell

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I gasped in pleasure, arching my back as Seifer drove his cock deeper and deeper into my willing body. I clenched my hands tight around the bindings holding me spreadeagled on his bed as he plunged into me. My own cock was erect and weeping fluid onto his and my chest as he dropped his head to nip at my exposed collarbone.

“Seifer! I’m gonna…” I ended my sentence with a cry as come spurted over both our chests. Seifer groaned my name in my ear as I felt him release deep inside my body.

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I am able to flee
able to breathe
able to scream that I hate you

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“Love you Seifer.” I whispered in the heated silence as I lay, now released from my bonds, across Seifer’s chest, my cheek resting over his heart.

“You too kitten.”

“Kitten?” I reared up to look down at him in shock. He smiled and ran a hand through my locks.

“Baby cat… You’re so cute when you scowl, you remind me of a kitten trying to be a fierce lion. Absolutely fucking cute.” I scowled at him and he laughed, tugging me down for a kiss that would begin our wonderful relationship.

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End