Phantom Dreams

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Phantom Dreams

At Balamb Garden the first year after the sorceress's rule. An Ex-student Ex-knight of the sorceress was in headmistress Quistis's office. the rest of the team teachers. a few still mission heads. and The Famed hero Squall in his own office just beside Quistis's working on papers.

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Seifer was sitting in the chair, Unshaven, Hair grown, and slightly older clothes. He had come back. Though his bright green eyes were duller then they used to be. Even duller then when he was being controlled by the sorceress.

Quistis looked him over, not as a woman, but as a trained solider assessing a solider's ability to step onto a killing feild; and walk away again. "Seifer." She said in greeting, before moving. Unable to sit down, but having moved closer. Leaning back on her desk."What can I do for you?"

"I need... Help... I need to fight again... I need a place... to belong again." He sighs, he couldn't beleive he had broken down and come back. "No one else will... Well let's say they wouldn't even let me step foot inside their buildings." Seifer says. His voice was the same. The tone however was somewhat defeated.

Quistis nodded a little, having thought that might have been the reason, or something close to it. "You can stay." She frowned thinking a little, "but we'd better check with the commander first." She swallowed hard, Squall himself having been tight lipped on the subject of Seifer, only giving the order not to hunt and/or kill the man.

"Well.. If he kills me it'll pretty much solve everything won't it. The last of the evil on this world will finally be done with." Seifer says his face impassive his sarcastic word's belying what he thought.

Quistis frowned at him. "I doubt he'd fight you while you're looking this out of shape." She said truthfully, actually a little concerned despite him fighting her and everyone else; but he was still human, and she just couldn't turn her back on him, at least like the rest of the world seemed to have. "Come on then." She said, pushing away from her desk.

Seifer stood up. And raked his fingers through his hair. Adjusting his clothes a bit. "Lead the way headmaster." He said sarcastically.

Quistis rolled her eyes, 'Some things never change.' She thought to herself, as she walked into Squall's office.

Squall looked up from his paperwork then back down as he filled out a form, "What can I do fo-" He'd started, before his mind caught up to what he had seen. Looking up again to make sure he was really seeing what he thought he was seeing, his eyes widened a little. "Almasy." He said in greeting.

"Commander." Seifer said leaning against the doorway arms crossed. A lot of his muscle was gone. Not that he wasn't muscular. It was like from a gunblader to a proffesional jogger. He was smaller, and thinner. It didn't look like he got a lot to eat. He was clean though, his clothes were a bit dirty. His boots deffinetly worn. His longer hair hung back against his head held back, simply from it being trained that way.

Squall leaned back in his chair, looked Seifer over slowly, taking in all the changes that had happened since he'd last seen the blond.

Quistis cleared her throat, breaking into the silence. "I've invited him to come back, but I wanted to run it by you first." She said, almost worried the man would say no, and the ex-knight would be turned away.

Squall nodded a little, "I'll find out what rooms are free, and get him set back up in a dorm room, then get him some good clothes and food."

Seifer sneared, and folded his arms over his chest but didn't say anything. It had been his own choice to come back here. "You gonna give me back Hyperion too? Or keep it in the shiney little case with yours in the history room?" Seifer asked having swung by. All of the gang's weapons were in the glass cases.

Squall sighed, then roll his eyes a little. 'Well it would be nice to have a good duel sometime.' He thought to himself, no one else was anywhere near his level with a gunblade. "Gunblades weren't meant to be kept in cases. You can have it back if you want it."

"Meant to be? They don't have feelings you know." Seifer grinned his famous Seifer grin. Only... It was watered down. It was poluted and not what it usually or... used to be. Seifer flopped into a chair. Arranging perfectly, Well as perfect as he could at least looking like he did.

Squall sighed, he held onto his temper with both hands, not wanting to snap at the... Lesser Seifer. Not sure how the man would react to him getting angry. "If you want your blade, you can go get it." Squall said, then frowned a little, while he tried to remember where he put the keys for the case.

Seifer scowled. "I would but it's locked. And since I'm here for help well. I don't want to go around breaking things before you tell me no to my face." Seifer said standing. "I think I've waisted enough time to be told no." He said turning away. He let his shoulders slump. He'd known he'd be shown the door even here as well. Laguna offered a small house in Esthar. Maybe he could go there. He ran his hand through his hair with a soft sigh of rejection. He had opening the door.

Squall had stood, tilting his head a little. "What do you mean? I offered to find you a room here... But I'd understand if you didn't want to stay." He said, before looking through his desk for his keys. "You still need to pass your exam... If you were serious about coming back that is."

"I'm what twenty now? Don't pull my chains Squall they've been rattled enough." Seifer said bitterly. "No one would accept me anyways. The ex-knight of an evil sorceress, yeah that'll go over well on my resume." Seifer said sarcastically.

"Squuuaaaaalll!!!" Came a very hyper, high pitch, squeeling, happy kind of voice. "I got the-woof!" She says having stopped and looked at Seifer seconds before she would have run into him. She was now wearing jeans and a flowing, softer yellow, shirt and she had Irvines old cowboy hat on. She'd probably stolen it and had run off before the cowboy woke up. Again. Today.... yeah.

Squall pinched the bridge of his nose, before he dropped his hand, looking at the three people in his office. Why had everyone visited today? First Quistis with Seifer in tow, and now the hyperactive ball of engery... His day was just getting better and better. "What can I do for you Selphie?" He asked, sliding his keys in his pocket, moving towards the door.

"I got the last mission reports in, and you always tell me to stop being so lazy and give you the "damn"". She quotes with her fingers. "Files and reports." She smiled brightly. Then looked at Seifer again.

Seifer was kind of shocked to see Selphie filled out. She had breasts albeit small, but still she'd never had them a year ago. She also had nice hips which was probably why she couldn't wear that ghastly dress. "You grew up." he said gruffly. Sort of surprised he was commenting at all, himself.

Quistis sighed, shaking her head a little. "Seifer, if you're done staring at her chest, I think Squall's ready to get your blade back." She teased a little, watching him interact with the others.

Squall nodded,looking down at selphie,standing next to seifer, looking even paler skinned and darker haired then normal standing next to the blond."Leave them on my desk."

"Yessir!" Selphie nearly jumps. she'd blushed at the compliment and had seemed to quiet down. " I'm glad to see you Seifer." she smiles softly before running out. Probably to go torture Irvine or zell.

Seifer really hadn't expected the warmth is Selphies voice or the true happiness in her voice. It sort of shook him. "I wasn't just noticing her changes. you on the other hand still need to take the pen outta your ass." He grumbles walking out. Next to Squasll he looked like a giant caveman. Tall, large, dark and light haired.

Quistis sighed walking out,heading towards her office.

Squall rolled his eyes a little,running his fingers through his hair as he stepped into the elevator,now that they were alone, not sure what to talk about.

"I'm not here for pity." Seifer says softly. arms folded leaning back against the elevator wall. Looking down at the wall. "I just... need a place to be for a while."

"You're welcome here."Squall smiled a little,looking out of the corner of his eye at the knight."She didnt react like you thought she would did she?"He asked,meaning selphie.

"No... I... no I didn't. Are the other's as changed?" He asks thn softly. He felt more alone now. it was better when he really was. would they too welcome him like she did. Zell he knew wouldn't how could the lithe little fighter even want to. Seifer did try to kill them all. albeit he wasn't really in control. But still. He slumps further. Withdrawing more. going silent.

Squall nodded a little,tilting his head at the blond."the only one you should be worried about kicking your ass is me."He smirked a little,stepping out as the elevator doors opened. "And dont worry about that until you get used to using hyperion again."

"yeah..." Seifer says softly stepping out to follow him. Seifer didn't have his trenchcoat. only pants and a short sleeve t-shirt. His hair was almost long enough to put in a pony tail. and he had at least a week's worth of blond stubble. All in all. He didn't look like Seifer Almasy.

Squall swallowed hard,dammit...just when I was ready to write him off as dead...he shows up in my office.He looked at the scruffy blond as he walked into the history room,digging his keys out,Then again...by the looks of it, he might have wished he was dead instead of this... HE sighed, opening the case,stepping back,hyperion shining black in the light.

Seifer sighs softly. Reaching up with a small smile before frowning. Touching the metal unable to smile know. oiled and still sharp. Hif fingers tremble lightly as he moves his hand to the hilt. An inch away he loses focus and pulls away walking back a foot or so holding his arms tightly. "Close it... Put her away." He says his tone flat. Emtpy. His eyes closed, his entire body was shaking. His face held nothing of what he felt. Just emptyness and despondence.

Squall's chin length bangs-having never gotten the chance to get the cut-hung in his eyes as he looked at the man.Eyes looking slightly worried,before turning aaway,closing the case with a soft clink,but left the lock undone-in case he wanted it later.

"Take me somewhere... Somewhere where no one can see." Seifer asks softly. Trembling still. "I need to think... Squall... please take me somewhere." He asks softer begging almost.

Squall nodded,"ok.Follow me."He said,heading for his own dorm rooms,which were close by,and let himself in,stepping back to let seifer go in first.

Seifer walks in brushing a tear from his face. Looking around. "this... is an incredable room." He says at first completely shocked.

Squall shrugged walking in behind him,shutting the door,leaning against it to undo his boots."There are some perks to being commander."

"yeah." Seifer says softly as another wave of sadness swept through him. He kicks off his own boot's easily. trying not to cry and trying to at least respect Squall's things.

Squall stopped,half way in undoing his last boot,balancing on one foot,studying the man before pulling of his shoes,heading for his bedroom."Anything you find in the cupboards you can have,and I have cable if you want to watch something.I'm getting a shower."He said,gathering clothes,knowign that if he was in the shower it'd give seifer the privacy to cry if he wanted to.

Seifer just nodded. It wasn't until the water ran that he went into the kitchen like area grabbed a few paper towels and sat down on the couch trying to calm down and stop crying. It took him half an hour. the Television was on. and he had curled his legs a bit and rested his head against the armrest. He almost looked asleep.

Squall shivered,having waited nearly 45 minutes,cold water streaming in his face,but wanted to give him long enough to get it out of his system.Drying off he dressed,blow dried his hair-it was just to annoying otherwise,beforer smiling a little from the hall,at the sight of the ex-knight nearly sleeping.Moving over,he crouched down,sitting back on his heels as he studied seifer."Go to bed seifer."

"Haven't got a bed." Seifer says trying to open his eyes. trying to drag his brain out of the crying hazy induced sleepy covered fog in it. He reaches out and touches Squall's shoulder. Before blinking getting rid of some of the blurryness.

"yea you do."Squall said softly,not wanting to wake him up more the neccesary, since it would be easier to move him around that way.Slipping a arm under his,tugging him to his feet,he moved towards his room.

Seifer leaned on him. "S'not mine." Seifer says dropping onto the covered bed. Laying spread out where he fell against it. Fumbling with is clothes. he didn't want to get in a clean bed with them on.

Squall sighed,"For now it is."He said,helping the man out of his pants,butq leaving the boxers,before stripping himself,crawling in the bed,laying on the opposite side as seifer."Get some sleep seifer."

Seifer crawled in and then turned to face Squall's back. "I... I'm really sorry Squall. for everything." he says softly rollign back and fallign asleep almost imediatly.

Me to seifer,me to.Squall thought to himself,going to sleep.

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Working on editing these. Since they are only the rough draft of a very long story between a friend and myself. I do not take kindly to arguable or offensive reveiws. Helpful one's are very much appreciated but otherwise BACK OFF!

Down knives no no it's okay... sorry...

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