A Passionate Mistake

Alright I'm sure you've read the summary... but I do have to add on. This is my very first first person. It may suck but look past the suckiness and just think of the yaoi. I know you want to. ^_^

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“What a fucking idiot,” I said to myself, wincing into the rainy night. “Who the hell comes up with that kind stupid answer to such a simple question?”

I looked down at the pavement as I continued walking down the street to my favorite bar. Lord knows why I decided to walk here when I have a perfectly good bike at home. I could have just driven off my anger that way; then again, I could have driven off my life too.

I could feel the droplets off water fall off my nose as I brooded. My boyfriend could be so stupid sometimes. Saying the wrong things at the wrong time, laughing at inappropriate times. Made me angry and feel so stupid at the same time. Why couldn’t he just act his age and be mature for once. Kinda sad how Zack can act like such a kid, when I can be so mature. Why the hell am I even in a relationship with him?

I looked through the rainy darkness again to see if I was anywhere near the bar I frequented. They didn’t care how old I was, they just gave me drinks. Very nice in these days, when you needed to get away from something, or someone. Right now, all I want to do is drown myself in liquor so I can forget all of Zacks stupidity. Maybe have some fun, for once in my life.

The neon light of the bar was blazing harshly against the night. A horribly eclectic vision of red, blue and green. Even though it was quite the sleazy bar, I still liked it. It was somewhere where it was quiet enough that I could think, plan, or whatever I was doing that particular night. Tonight I had to get rid of all this anger from my boyfriends’ stupidity.

The door swung open with a squeak as an obviously drunk man exited, mumbling something about monsters outside of the city. He gave me a startled look then went on with his mad drunken ramblings. I walked across the floor, dripping wet from the rain and sat in my favorite place along the bar. It was in the corner where I most likely wouldn’t be disturbed, except for that nosy bartender.

As I sat down the smell of food drifted towards me and I realized that I haven’t had anything to eat since that morning. The delicious food smells made my stomach rumble with hunger as I called over the bartender.

“Wha’ can I do for ya pretty boy?” he asked.

The bartender called me that ever since day one. No matter how many times I asked he would not stop calling me that. Yeah, I know he wanted something else from me for payment of my tab, but I couldn’t do that… especially not with him. “Yeah, what’s on the menu tonight?”

“If I ‘ad my way wit’ ya, you would be on my menu tonigh’. That pretty little mouth of yours would be a tasty treat.” He replied.

“Okay enough with the horseshit, just tell me what your cook is making tonight.” I flared with anger, signaling I was in no mood for his sexual advances tonight.

“Fine, fine. We have a delicious chicken stew on the go. Fig’r’d since it’s such a miserable nigh’ ou’ people is gonna need some warmin’ up, ya know?”

“I’ll have a bowl of that then, and some beer.” I waved off the bartender before he could say anything else.

The bar was pretty full tonight, probably just with people who were looking to get out of the rain. I looked around to see if I knew anyone, thankfully there wasn’t. There was only people sitting quietly at their tables, a few playing darts at the other end of the bar and a couple of loud drunks that were complaining about being cut off the booze.

‘Thank God for that.’ I though as I looked down at the somewhat splintered bar.

A few more minutes and the food and drink were in front of me and without a word, the bartender left me alone. I took the beer and sipped it slowly before I leaned over and inhaled the delicious smell of the food. For a shitty bar, they sure had a wonderful cook… and good drinks of course. Before I knew it the food was gone, I guessed I was really that hungry. I licked the spoon gingerly and dropped it in the bowl with a clang, not noticing a dark figure looming behind me.

“A little young to be drinking, don’t you think Cloud?” the figure said.

“Who the hell are you to say I’m too young to drink, and how the fuck do you know my name?”

“I’d like to think every good general knows his soldiers names.”

I blanched at this and whipped around in my stool, eyes wide as I saw the Great General Sephiroth standing there with a smirk dancing across his face. “G-g-general Sephiroth. I-I didn’t know it was you.”

I blushed as the general chuckled. “At ease Cloud, I am merely here on social business. When I saw your memorable hair from across the room I couldn’t help but come over and at least meet the cadet that was beating out all the others.”

General Sephiroth sat in the seat next to mine and queried, “I was just wondering what is causing you such anger tonight.”

Turning back around and sitting back in my seat, still not believing that the general was talking to me, I replied, “It’s nothing really. I’m over-reacting about a stupid fight my boyfriend and I had.”

“Boyfriend?” Sephiroths’ eyebrow rose at this. “So you’re gay then?”

I silently reprimanded myself for being so silly and letting slip that I was gay. “I-I hope that won’t affect my SOLDIER career.”

“It depends on who you are in the relationship with. You know it is against the rules to have a relationship with another cadet.”

“He’s not a cadet…”

“Oh? A civilian then…”

“No,” I said cautiously. “He’s a first-class SOLDIER.”

I was shocked to see the general in such a calm mood after hearing that and he obviously saw my face. “Cloud, first-class SOLDIER usually have relationships with one, or more, of the cadets. It’s very common in the ranks. It’s also common to live with one another. Rarely does it ever last though. Who is this SOLDIER?”

“Umm, Zack Fair sir.” I managed to stammer out.

The general laughed at this. “Zack, you say? How on earth did you manage that? There have been so many cadets trying to get in his pants. Even I--, no, that isn’t important.” He took another drink of his beer and asked, “So what did you and Zack have a fight about?”

I looked down at my beer and swirled it around in the glass. “You’ll think I’m stupid for over-reacting”

“I promise I won’t”

“Okay, well I asked him what he thought that rich people did with their money.” I tried to explain, getting annoyed again. “He answered, ‘They buy gold yachts and wonder why they sink.’ He is so childish; sometimes I wonder why I’m not with a person more mature”

“Ahh, I see. Zack always had a flair for immaturity. Always pulling pranks that one, he was the worst cadet I’d ever seen.” He chuckled. “If you will excuse me Cloud, I must go to the men’s room.”

“I’m thinking I’m going to head out anyways General. It’s getting pretty late.”

The General nodded and turned on his heel. I looked down at my glass, almost half emptied, blushing like a virgin bride on her honeymoon. Even the General thought Zack was immature. At least I’m not the only one. After that thought, my mind started to drift to the General. He looked even hotter up close; even if I were single, I would never have the chance to be with him. I don’t know if he is even gay!

I got out my Gil and paid the bartender, who gave me way too much change and a wink and headed out the door, not noticing a shadow following behind me. Not thinking I turned right instead of left when I got out the door and headed in the opposite direction of mine and Zacks apartment.

I walked a couple more blocks when I felt arms slip around my waist. Thinking it was Zack I tried to squirm out of his grasp. “Zack I’m still mad at you, so fuck off.”

“Zack? I’m not Zack. I just followed you cause you’re pretty,” the obviously drunk man said as he turned me around and pushed me up against a wall. “Now, pucker up beautiful.”

I turned ghostly white at this. I’m not fully sure how I could deal with this man, I was still at a low level in SOLDIER… hell I was still learning how to do hand-to-hand combat. The man released one of my arms and quickly put it up to my throat, quicker than a drunken man should be able to. I had never felt so violated in my life when he kissed me. His breath smelled and tasted heavily of alcohol.

I struggled violently against the hand as the man reached down and undid my pants, effectively pushing them down after. I gasped as the cold air hit my penis and struggled some more. Again, the drunk turned me around and smashed my face into the wall. The man was very strong, too strong.

I tasted blood in my mouth and felt my nose start bleeding as I heard the man slide down his zipper. I was scared; I didn’t want to be raped! “NO! Please stop it sir! I’ll give you anything you want! ANYTHING!”

“I just want you’re pretty little ass…” the man slurred some more positioning himself behind me.

I started to cry as I felt the drunken man grunt as he entered me. “Please sir… please…” I pleaded but he continued as if he didn’t hear me. I continued to sob through the pain when I felt the man suddenly stop and back away. I slid down the wall in pain and quickly pulled up my pants.

I cautiously looked back and saw the man quivering with a sword to his throat. The man wielding the sword was engulfed in darkness. I looked along the sword, recognized it, and whispered, “Masume?”

“No one, I mean no one fucks with my cadets. You just made that biggest mistake of your life.” Resonated the voice from the darkness. Then with one slice the drunk mans' throat was slit with such deft precision, he died almost instantly.

The general stepped out of the darkness and held out his hand to me. “Are you okay Cloud?”

I stood up and buried my head in his chest but quickly realized that I’m going to get his clothes soaked in blood and stepped back. “I’m sorry General, I didn’t me—“

“Come back to my place Cloud, you certainly can’t go home looking like that. I’ve got some potions at my house, we’ll heal you up and you can be on your way.”

Me?? At the Generals place?? That was almost every cadet’s dream! Well, almost every one. I looked down and stammered, “O-okay.”

With that, he led me to his house and all the way, I didn’t see him smirking.

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When we got to the Generals’ loft, he disappeared into another room, which I supposed was the bathroom. I painfully sat down and looked around in awe. It was a simple loft… a bachelor loft. The bed was over in the corner and the couch and chair in the middle of the room. There was also a small kitchenette in the opposite corner of the bed. Other than that, it was sparsely decorated.

At least the couch was comfortable. It was a nice black leather. My mind started wandering to the place it should never go, at least not when I was with another man. I imagined the general and I, sticky with sweat writhing on the leather, moaning in passion and lust. I shoot my head vigorously but that only made me feel worse. God, did I ever have a headache, among the other aches I had from the happenings in the street earlier.

The general came back with some cotton swabs, bandages and cream. He spread them out on the coffee table. “Now let’s get that pretty face of yours cleaned up. We wouldn’t want Zack to worry about what happened.” He picked up one of the swabs and started cleaning up some of the blood.

“Umm, General? I’m capable doing this myself. I tried to turn my face away but he kept his hold on my chin strong. I couldn’t do anything but gaze into the strange, but entrancing, green eyes of his. He had beautiful silver hair as well that went down to his waist. He was sexy, too sexy. The General must have caught me admiring him because he smirked as he kept working.

I was still blushing fiercely when he finally sat back. “There, don’t you feel better now that you’re cleaned up?”

“Yeah a lot better. I should probably ge—“ My sentence was cut off by the Generals’ lips on mine. I pulled back unwillingly. “Wha—what are you doing General!”

“Come now Cloud, I know you’re not that innocent. I know what I want and I’ll get it when I want. At the moment I want you,” smirked Sephiroth. “And please, call me Sephiroth… I want you to scream it for me later.”

I started to blush again, I couldn’t help it, I always dreamed of this moment but this was different. In my dreams, I was single but I was taken right now, I couldn’t do that to Zack. “But what about Zack?”

“Don’t worry about him, he doesn’t need to know.”

“Bu—“my sentence was cut off again. I wanted to get up and run but his lips felt so good. I melted into the delectable kiss, feeling my body tingle with anticipation. My pants got tight in arousal. I was quite surprised at that actually, even Zack couldn’t do that. He had to work a little harder to get me in such a state. I guess because this was fantasy ever since I met the general.

When Sephiroths’ hand started to make its way up the inside of my thigh I couldn’t help but let out a little squeak. My muscles twitched under his fingers path, both in pleasure and half-assed unwillingness.

His lips made their way down my jaw and stopped to suckle on my neck. I couldn’t help but moan with pure lust. This man was driving me crazy! A shiver passed through my body as the Generals’ hand finally made its way to cup my arousal. My hips thrust upwards lusting for more contact with his hand as I moaned. I could feel Sephiroth smile against my skin.

“Well Cloud, looks like you want it just as badly as I do. You’re body won’t deny me.” He squeezed my hard-on lightly and I moaned even more.

Why was he doing this to me? Now I do know that he likes me, but why didn’t he come to me earlier? Most of all, why did this have to happen after I almost was raped. I was still a little sore from that but as the General said my body won’t deny him.

I couldn’t lie to myself either. I wanted the General, I mean Sephiroth, so badly. Not under these circumstances though. I shivered again, when Sephiroth slowly unbutton my pants. They were getting comfortably tight and I sighed when my erection was finally released from its fabric prison.

I could feel a tantalizing finger run up my length, making me take in a sharp breath of air. I closed my eyes as my skin tingled with pleasure. This must be a dream, I must have passed out when that guy was trying to rape me, and this was just too unreal for this to be happening. I must have been squirming because I felt hands on my hips and his warm moist mouth encase my swollen member.

“Aah... Sephi…” I managed to get out. “…roth…”

He smiled around my erection as he slowly brought his other hand towards my entrance. I hissed in pain when he started to massage the ring of muscles.

“Sephiroth, please stop… it hurts…”

“Good… I must say though, I didn’t expect Harwood would try to rape you”

I pushed Sephiroth away with all the strength I could muster. “Ha-hartwood?”

“Yes, I hired him to assault you but I guess he got drunk and decided to do other things. At least he got a little pleasure before he died.” Sephiroth laughed and was on me again.

I tried to push him off again but he used all of his weight to deter my efforts. “You hired a man to assault me and then you killed him? Why?”

“To get you up here of course. So I could have my way with you.” He kissed my neck roughly. I could feel my skin bruising under his mouth.

“Didn’t he have a family?”

“Don’t worry about them; I made sure they’re well situated…”

“Sephiroth… you ass-“He cut me off by smothering my lips in another blood searing kiss.

He was back to kissing my body and playing with my ass. I struggled some more but again was unsuccessful. My body just wouldn’t respond to my demands. It just laid there, swaying to the movement of passion and lust. I let out a cry as he thrust a finger unceremoniously into me.

My hips thrust forwards as I felt Sephiroths lips reattached themselves around my dick. And even though I was still in pain, from both the earlier intrusion and from Sephiroths dry fingers, I moaned as he hit my soft spot.

“Uhnn… please… more…” Even though my mind was racing with hatred, I wanted more. I hated myself for it too. I was with Zack but here I was begging for more from his superior. My superior…

I could feel myself stretching to accommodate his fingers. My mind started to wander to somewhere I knew I shouldn’t go. I started wondering how big Sephiroths’ cock was, how warm it would feel in my hands, how it would feel inside of me. I moaned deeply and bucked my hips when he hit my soft spot again. I might have wanted to choke his with my cock too, which I almost succeeded.

The General suddenly stopped, pulling his fingers out of me and reaching between us. I knew what was going to happen next. I couldn’t help but feel scared but excited. I could feel his shaft rubbing against mine. My hand made its way down between our bellies to touch him.

“Mmmnnn…” I moaned in pleasure. He was so thick and long.

Sephiroth smirked then leaned back. “I want you to suck it…” He stated. Not only did he want it but I wanted it too.

I got down on the floor between his legs and stared at the solid length before me. It twitched in anticipation as I reached out and lightly touched it. As I wrapped my hands Sephiroths’ length, he moaned ever so slightly, barely audible to the normal human ear. I smiled slightly as he looked down at me with his intense mako enhanced eyes.

I stroked his shaft a couple more times and then softy licked off some of the precum. He grabbed my spiked hair and pushed my head towards his cock. I took the sign, put my mouth over the head of his cock and started to suck lightly. Soon I had most of his length in my mouth and even though he was urging for more it was all I could take. I didn’t have much practice with sucking cock because Zack liked to give.

I closed my eyes and pulled back to lick his full length then plunge my mouth back onto him. Sephiroth swayed back his head so he was looking at the ceiling and loosened his grip on my hair a bit. I wondered what he was thinking about. I slowed down a bit and he grabbed onto my hair tightly again and pulled me back to look at my face. I stared back wincing, with a little precum dribbling from my lip. I reached up with my hand to wipe it off but he slapped my hand away and stood up, bringing me up with him.

I cringed at the pain of him tightly holding my hair but I kept my hands at my side, trying not to struggle. “Don’t try and do anything,” He lifted my chin up and licked off his own precum. “Just be good and I won’t hurt you… much.”

I shuddered when he pulled my head to the side and started kissing my neck, adding to the marks that he already left there. He rubbed his length against mine and grabbed my ass with his other hand. He whirled me around and shoved me belly down on his coffee table. It kinda hurt with the force he used. He held me there while he ran a white finger down my spine as I struggled to get up. The finger slowly made its way into me, followed by two more.

“Uunnn…. Sephiroth…” I moaned into the table, pushing back on his finger, urging him to go deeper to hit that sweet spot I loved.

He plunged deeper with his fingers and leaned over me, kissing my back. He released my hair and started stroking my slight curve of my side with gentle fingers. I could feel myself shuddering in pleasure as he stroked my inside with deft precision.

I thought that maybe he would be gentle with me now. I never experienced rough sex, so I didn’t know if I would like it or not. Sure, you get bruised maybe cut in training but that was training, not in personal life. Zack never got rough with me, he treated me like a little porcelain doll. I liked it cause it was very different from the roughness on the field.

Moans of disappointment came from my mouth when I felt his fingers leave my body. I looked behind me to see the General slicking a generous amount of lube on his length. He was looking at me hungrily and I gave him a naughty look and waved my ass through the air. Sephiroth smirked and coated my hole with some lube as well. I was warm and it tingled a bit. I moaned lustfully as he quickly stuck one of his fingers back in me then positioned himself behind me.

I lurched forwards as he entered me quickly to the hilt. I tore a little bit and felt a little blood trickle down my scrotum. It was painful but when he moved over the bundle of nerves that resided deep inside me, all I felt was pleasure.

“Didn’t Zack ever fuck you? You’re so tight.” Sephiroth said with only a hint of pleasure in his voice.

I looked back at him with scrutinizing eyes. How dare he mention my boyfriend right now. I mean, yeah I was here fucking him... but that didn’t mean I didn’t feel guilty about doing it. This was just… it was a dream, my dream to be here. Fucking the beautiful General, his silky silver hair flowing around us, his fingers entwined in mine, his cock moving in my…

I moaned as Sephiroth began to move again. It felt so good to be moving against him in a moment of lust. His hair brushed against my back and I felt him kiss my neck. He thrust in again wildly. I could hear my skin slap against his, the noise turning me on even more.

His fingers were digging into my hips as he thrust wildly into me. The angle was perfect, hitting the bundle of nerves every time. I pushed back on his cock and threw my head back, moaning, letting my pleasure be heard by the silver-haired General behind me.

I looked back to see if Sephiroth was enjoying himself to. All I saw was his green eyes staring at my back, a droplet of sweat rolling down his face and a smirk. He knew that it wouldn’t take me long to get off at the pace and ferocity he was thrusting at. Never in my whole life have I had a good fuck like this. I mean the only other guy I’ve screwed was Zack… he was my first boyfriend too. Before him… I slept with a few girls; I never knew I was gay. Girls never did anything for me, but once I got into cadets and first saw the General, I started fantasizing about men, him specifically. I never thought this would happen, so when I met Zack, I went for it, and he was quite the looker.

“Nnn… Cloud” I heard Sephiroth whisper behind me.

All my muscles involuntarily tighten when I heard him say that. Those words were not expected, especially from the General. His face was usually so calculated and his face always relaxed in completely neutrality. I felt him stop and lurch forward, his chest on my back. I heard him growl some obscenities at the sudden tightness.

“Fucking relax cadet. That is a fucking order.” I heard the General hiss in my ear, his voice relaying a hint of pain.

I relaxed a little because I wanted him to start moving again. My orgasm was built up and ready for release, begging for it. I couldn’t help but groan my disappointment when I felt him slowly slid out of me.

I almost had my head turned around when I felt a hand on my arm. Thinking he wanted me to get out, I started to rise, my head down in shame. I was taken by surprise when I was roughly shoved down to the ground, face up. I felt my wrists being hoisted up above my head and saw the Generals head so close to mine.

“And I thought it was starting to get boring. Is my prey getting tired?” Sephiroth was staring down at me intensely as I turned beet red and shook my head, not knowing what to say. “Good. And make lots of noise… I love it when my cadets make noise.”

I blushed as he put my legs over his shoulders and thrusted into me again with so much force, I thought I might have torn again but I loved it anyways. I guess I was starting to learn that with great pleasure some pain must be implemented some where in there. He nearly bent me in half when he leaned down to whisper in my ear.

“And don’t you… even…” He started to thrust in time with his words to emphasize them. “Think… about turning that pretty face away. I want to see it when you orgasm.”

He went back to be silently watching my as my face contorted slightly with pleasure. He slammed into me repeatedly as hard as he could into my prostate. I couldn’t help but make noise cause I felt my breath being taken away with each thrust.

Sephiroth decided to double my pleasure by reaching down and stroking my erection in time with his thrusts, just as roughly too. I was already panting fast, and this was almost all I could take. Just when I thought I couldn’t take any more, he leaned down and took one of my nipples into his mouth. Biting it roughly, swirling his tongue around it. Oh God… I really wasn’t going to last long at all.

“Ahhh… Sephi… I’m gonna…” It was just too much; I came hard and fast all over both of our bellies. I threw my head back and screamed Sephiroths name as my muscles spasmed around his shaft.

He rode out my orgasm, still hitting my nerves, for a couple more thrusts before I felt him cum deep inside me. He whispered my name rather than scream it like I know he wanted to. It just showed me how much control he had over his body and voice. I was in total awe over it. Maybe someday I could be just like him. He released my legs, let them drop to the sides, and laid down on me.

He licked my earlobe and whispered, “You’d better be ready to fuck again. I’m going to fuck you all night long.”

I shuddered in response. No way was I gonna pass up that. The great General got up and stood there, looking down at my shivering body. I then started to feel extremely naked. I desperately wanted to cover myself up with something but nothing was near by. I sat up and looked around. My eyes caught the Generals and then slowly trailed down his body coming to rest on his privates. They lingered there for a while, the General just looking at me with amusement in his eyes. It startled me when he spoke next.

“Are you that eager for more?” He chuckled.

I licked my lips and smiled. “Yes sir…”

I reached out and ran my hand up his milky leg, past his privates and up his chest, standing as I did. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. I wanted a lot more.

“Good because I’m gonna fuck you all night long…” He whispered.

We fucked for most of the night, until he decided it was enough. I stayed up though. I felt really damned guilty about what happened.

“I am such a fucking idiot…”

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A/N: If you are new to my stories, read 'The Claiming of Zack Fair' after. This is the prequel to the story. Now I just have to work on the long ass sequel. Multiple chapters of Cloud fucking different people in each one. I won't tell you who though! REVIEW PLEASE!