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Obsessions
Obsessions
I don’t know what I was thinking as I stared into the bottomless pit of the Northern Crater. My mind for the first time since I started chasing after my once idol Sephiroth was blank. I could hear Yuffie’s excited quick speech (she momentarily forgetting her motion sickness) as she spoke to Tifa, Barrett’s gruff voice cursing at the same person we had chased here to defeat, and I could hear Cid mumbling.
But it was the silence from the dark one that was leaning against the wall away from everyone that drew me into thoughtlessness. I could feel his crimson gaze on my back and I resisted the urge of turning around and asking him what it was about me that fascinated him.
“Cloud.” I nearly jumped when he finally spoke. I turned around and our gazes met.
“I would like to talk with you alone if you are willing.” I nodded and watched in fascination as he pulled his crimson cloak along with him in a flourish that portrayed so much grace that I knew I would never have and followed after the raven haired ex-Turk.
I followed him through the corridors of the Highwind and to one of the small rooms there. He turned around with that dark grace of his and stared me in the eye.
“When all of this is over and final, what are you planning on doing?” he asked me slowly, thoughtfully.
“If we survive you mean,” I started, the funny thing about this man was he always got me thinking about things I would have never thought of before. It was one of the things that drew me to him. That and his unavoidable darkness. The demons that I knew were lurking under his skin and in his mind never failed to capture my curiosity…or my fascination.
“I don’t know. I’ll probably help Tifa run her bar or something, all I know is that when this is over I can finally start being the person I was before Hojo.” I answered truthfully. He didn’t shift, didn’t speak…he just stood there and kept looking into my eyes.
“What are you planning on doing?” I asked kind of set off by the way he was looking at me. It looked like he was trying to solve a great puzzle; his face blank and his alluring crimson eyes watching me.
“That…I do not know as well. Perhaps I will go back to Nibelheim.” I sighed quietly at that and rubbed the back of my head in a nervous manner.
“Why do I have this feeling that everything will seem empty once he’s gone?” I asked to no one in specific but as fate would have it Vincent answered me.
“Because for the longest time you have been very obsessed with Sephiroth it is hard to see a world without him, even though it would be better off you would rather not end these continuous confrontations.”
“You make it sound like I’m in love with the bastard.” I grumped glaring mildly at the taller man.
He shifted to the right then as he seemed to always do when he thought something was interesting or ridiculous.
“Are you?” I couldn’t keep looking into those soulful scarlet colored eyes after he asked me that.
“At one point in my life I could honestly say that I probably was, but this is now. We have to stop him for the sake of everything and everyone.” He stood there then, staring at me as if I was the answer to all the problems in the universe. He was waiting, waiting for the right time to question me. I didn’t have to wait long.
“If he asked you to…would you go with him?” the world seemed to stop at that point. Would I really drop everything, forsake everyone and go with Sephiroth if he asked it of me?
“Yes.” The answer slipped passed my lips in a breathless whisper without any way of stopping it. He moved closer then, not close enough for me to feel his breath on my face but close enough to embrace me if he wanted to. I knew I had said the wrong thing, I know it was stupid and now Vincent was going to tell me how stupid it was.
“Cloud.” I squeezed my eyes closed and held my breath, waiting for the chastising I knew was coming.
“Look at me.” I resisted at first but when I felt his cool yet warm hand on my chin my eyes snapped open and met with warm blood colored ones.
“You would walk away from the only friends you’ve ever had for a man that only wants to manipulate you? You would walk away from a chance at something far greater than just one individual for something that can never be? You would walk away from the one whose heart you hold in the palm of your hand?” at first I was speechless. Never in the whole time Vincent had been with us had he spoken so much. Then my brain processed his last words.
“Vincent…what are you trying to say?” I was close enough to see a small frown work its way across the raven’s usually hidden face.
“When I was in Nibelheim, a prisoner of my own nightmares, I saw you. You were an angel among my demons Cloud.” My heart started beating faster but he wasn’t finished.
“After thirty years of sleep…it was you Cloud whom I first laid eyes on. You with your expressive sky blue eyes and wild honey golden hair. The darkness in my soul that I had felt so strongly for thirty years…disappeared the moment our eyes locked.” I hadn’t noticed him or even me moving then but I felt the wall press against my back and my heart spiked dangerously. He hovered close to me our noses almost touching.
“What I had with Lucrecia was merely an obsession. What I feel for you now Cloud…is far more than I could ever hope to feel with her...” He captured my lips in that moment and my eyes widened with pure shock. I shocked myself even further when I nearly melted into his embrace. I earned a chuckle for the squeak I issued when he ran his tongue long my bottom lip. The kiss was slow and passionate and I really did melt into his embrace this time.
It was so nice to hear him laugh, even if it was only a chuckle.
“Vincent…I-” I started to say when we separated but he cut me off.
“Shhh…” he hushed me with one of his fingers. “I know.” My eyes widened at that. He knew that I was almost as obsessed with him as I was with Sephiroth? No…what I felt for Vincent wasn’t merely an obsession, it was so much more. He kissed me again then and I put all my soul into it. He broke away sooner than I had hoped he would and rested his lips against my forehead.
“When this is all over…” he cut off, unsure of what to say.
“When this is all over you’re going to explain to me why the hell you didn’t say anything sooner.” He chuckled lightly again and I smiled at him.
“Are you ready?” He asked me and I sighed before nodding.
“Yeah.” Was my breathless reply.
“You don’t sound so sure.” He said a little mirthfully and I shook my head with a chuckle of my own.
“I’m not, the only thing I’m sure of is that now, I finally want this to be over.” I felt him pull away from me and I sighed. I would have liked nothing more than for him to hold me just a little bit longer, but time was running out for Gaia.
“You never answered me.” Vincent said as I started to walk out the door. It took me a moment to realize what he was talking about.
“No Vincent, I wouldn’t do that to everyone…and I definitely would never do that to you.” I didn’t have to be looking at him to feel the loving warm gaze on me or the smile that he directed at me. Even if it was a small one.
One step at a time, I told myself. Someday, I swore, I would see him smile full out. Someday.
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I don’t know what I was thinking as I stared into the bottomless pit of the Northern Crater. My mind for the first time since I started chasing after my once idol Sephiroth was blank. I could hear Yuffie’s excited quick speech (she momentarily forgetting her motion sickness) as she spoke to Tifa, Barrett’s gruff voice cursing at the same person we had chased here to defeat, and I could hear Cid mumbling.
But it was the silence from the dark one that was leaning against the wall away from everyone that drew me into thoughtlessness. I could feel his crimson gaze on my back and I resisted the urge of turning around and asking him what it was about me that fascinated him.
“Cloud.” I nearly jumped when he finally spoke. I turned around and our gazes met.
“I would like to talk with you alone if you are willing.” I nodded and watched in fascination as he pulled his crimson cloak along with him in a flourish that portrayed so much grace that I knew I would never have and followed after the raven haired ex-Turk.
I followed him through the corridors of the Highwind and to one of the small rooms there. He turned around with that dark grace of his and stared me in the eye.
“When all of this is over and final, what are you planning on doing?” he asked me slowly, thoughtfully.
“If we survive you mean,” I started, the funny thing about this man was he always got me thinking about things I would have never thought of before. It was one of the things that drew me to him. That and his unavoidable darkness. The demons that I knew were lurking under his skin and in his mind never failed to capture my curiosity…or my fascination.
“I don’t know. I’ll probably help Tifa run her bar or something, all I know is that when this is over I can finally start being the person I was before Hojo.” I answered truthfully. He didn’t shift, didn’t speak…he just stood there and kept looking into my eyes.
“What are you planning on doing?” I asked kind of set off by the way he was looking at me. It looked like he was trying to solve a great puzzle; his face blank and his alluring crimson eyes watching me.
“That…I do not know as well. Perhaps I will go back to Nibelheim.” I sighed quietly at that and rubbed the back of my head in a nervous manner.
“Why do I have this feeling that everything will seem empty once he’s gone?” I asked to no one in specific but as fate would have it Vincent answered me.
“Because for the longest time you have been very obsessed with Sephiroth it is hard to see a world without him, even though it would be better off you would rather not end these continuous confrontations.”
“You make it sound like I’m in love with the bastard.” I grumped glaring mildly at the taller man.
He shifted to the right then as he seemed to always do when he thought something was interesting or ridiculous.
“Are you?” I couldn’t keep looking into those soulful scarlet colored eyes after he asked me that.
“At one point in my life I could honestly say that I probably was, but this is now. We have to stop him for the sake of everything and everyone.” He stood there then, staring at me as if I was the answer to all the problems in the universe. He was waiting, waiting for the right time to question me. I didn’t have to wait long.
“If he asked you to…would you go with him?” the world seemed to stop at that point. Would I really drop everything, forsake everyone and go with Sephiroth if he asked it of me?
“Yes.” The answer slipped passed my lips in a breathless whisper without any way of stopping it. He moved closer then, not close enough for me to feel his breath on my face but close enough to embrace me if he wanted to. I knew I had said the wrong thing, I know it was stupid and now Vincent was going to tell me how stupid it was.
“Cloud.” I squeezed my eyes closed and held my breath, waiting for the chastising I knew was coming.
“Look at me.” I resisted at first but when I felt his cool yet warm hand on my chin my eyes snapped open and met with warm blood colored ones.
“You would walk away from the only friends you’ve ever had for a man that only wants to manipulate you? You would walk away from a chance at something far greater than just one individual for something that can never be? You would walk away from the one whose heart you hold in the palm of your hand?” at first I was speechless. Never in the whole time Vincent had been with us had he spoken so much. Then my brain processed his last words.
“Vincent…what are you trying to say?” I was close enough to see a small frown work its way across the raven’s usually hidden face.
“When I was in Nibelheim, a prisoner of my own nightmares, I saw you. You were an angel among my demons Cloud.” My heart started beating faster but he wasn’t finished.
“After thirty years of sleep…it was you Cloud whom I first laid eyes on. You with your expressive sky blue eyes and wild honey golden hair. The darkness in my soul that I had felt so strongly for thirty years…disappeared the moment our eyes locked.” I hadn’t noticed him or even me moving then but I felt the wall press against my back and my heart spiked dangerously. He hovered close to me our noses almost touching.
“What I had with Lucrecia was merely an obsession. What I feel for you now Cloud…is far more than I could ever hope to feel with her...” He captured my lips in that moment and my eyes widened with pure shock. I shocked myself even further when I nearly melted into his embrace. I earned a chuckle for the squeak I issued when he ran his tongue long my bottom lip. The kiss was slow and passionate and I really did melt into his embrace this time.
It was so nice to hear him laugh, even if it was only a chuckle.
“Vincent…I-” I started to say when we separated but he cut me off.
“Shhh…” he hushed me with one of his fingers. “I know.” My eyes widened at that. He knew that I was almost as obsessed with him as I was with Sephiroth? No…what I felt for Vincent wasn’t merely an obsession, it was so much more. He kissed me again then and I put all my soul into it. He broke away sooner than I had hoped he would and rested his lips against my forehead.
“When this is all over…” he cut off, unsure of what to say.
“When this is all over you’re going to explain to me why the hell you didn’t say anything sooner.” He chuckled lightly again and I smiled at him.
“Are you ready?” He asked me and I sighed before nodding.
“Yeah.” Was my breathless reply.
“You don’t sound so sure.” He said a little mirthfully and I shook my head with a chuckle of my own.
“I’m not, the only thing I’m sure of is that now, I finally want this to be over.” I felt him pull away from me and I sighed. I would have liked nothing more than for him to hold me just a little bit longer, but time was running out for Gaia.
“You never answered me.” Vincent said as I started to walk out the door. It took me a moment to realize what he was talking about.
“No Vincent, I wouldn’t do that to everyone…and I definitely would never do that to you.” I didn’t have to be looking at him to feel the loving warm gaze on me or the smile that he directed at me. Even if it was a small one.
One step at a time, I told myself. Someday, I swore, I would see him smile full out. Someday.
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CrimsonRain19
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