Sleepless night

 

Sephiroth didn't know how it came to this. He didn't remember agreeing, but somehow, Zack managed to persuade him to let a young cadet Cloud Strife sleep in his apartment.

Sitting on his couch, holding a book in his hand, while a clock on the opposite wall showed that it was 30 minutes after midnight. He sighed, throwing the book aside. He stopped reading it an hour ago anyway. He just couldn't help himself, he's been staring at the blonde boy sleeping in his bed by a corner of his eye. Now when he thought of it, he didn't remember saying the boy could sleep in his bed either. But he appearently did. Otherwise he wouldn't he there.. would he?

He shook his head. 'Come to your senses, Sephiroth!' he told to himself quietly, resisting the urge to slap himself. 'Attraction is a waste of time, remember that. You're leader of an army, you don't drool over any blondies. Male blondies on top of that.'

The silver haired General stood up and made his way to bathroom. He closed the door behind himself, leaning against it and taking a few deep breaths to calm himself fully. Then he deliberately took off all of his clothes, folding them neatly on a bench right next to the entrance. Carefully stepping into a bathtub, he let the water, flowing from the shower, soak his long silver hair.

For a long time he just stood there, not thinking about anything. He sat down in the tub afterwards, pulling his legs to his chest, hugging them loosely. Letting his head rest on his knees he blankly stared on the wall.

'I'll sleep on the couch, that much is clear. But I need a blanket and a pillow... Maybe a blanket is enough. And to get that I have to go to the bedroom. Why did I leave that chest of drawers, where I keep these things, RIGHT next to the bed again? ... Oh yeah, never thought somebody else would touch my bed, let alone SLEEP in it. And to think it's such a sexy blon-! ... I just don't have to look at him. Totally easy. I'll just quickly sneak in there and retreat even faster. Yup, no problem.' or so he thought.

Once he stepped out, stopping the water, the General dried himself, put on a long sleep shirt which he took from a hanger and looked at himself in the mirror.

"Come on, you can do it!" he said to his refrection and made his way to the living room. He could barely see a silhouette lying on the bed from this angle.

'Now keep staring at the wall, keep staring at the wall,...' he kept repeting this in his mind as he soundlessly made his way next to the bed. Opening the right drawer he took a dark warm blanket out and planned to leave, but... his eyes rested on Cloud for a while.

For a moment he thought he's lost his breath. He could only gawk at the beauty right in front of his nose. Now that he could see the boy closely, all previous plans and thoughts were left forgotten. As if they never existed. The tall man never relized when exactly did he start breathing again. But since he was still alive, it was only a logical thing to deduce. Not that he could think right at this moment. He couldn't tear eyes of this sight. He had a feeling that right now an army could break into his apartment and he wouln't care.

He was told he didn't need to feel attraction. No, he was told he wasn't ABLE to feel it. But here he was, drooling like a teenage girl. Maybe the reaction was so strong precisely because this was the first time. And at his age... Most of people who weren't crazy scientists would tell him it's a natural thing. He's never ever felt a sexual tension either, but when he looked on this boy, it made his stomach feel like it's on water, he felt strange pressure and his head felt light and funny. He knew, without a doubt, that he was sexually attracted to this boy. Despite the blonde's young age and the fact that... well, he was a boy.

'Maybe that's why I've always considered myself not interested.... I've always checked only on women, never on... same sex.'

He knew it wasn't a BAD thing. It just felt too weird for the moment.

Swallowing soundlessly, Sephiroth dared to move closer to the sleeping boy. He could see a bloody scratch on his cheek and some minor bruise on his jaw. Yet his face looked so peaceful one could easily forget about those wounds. Though to Sephiroth, the boy looked even more appealing with them. He then remembered, that the boys was beat up by a group of other cadets. That's why Cloud was sleeping here tonight. Oh right, the General was so making sure those boys were out of ShinRa before they could even blink. He won't have anybody who attacks their allies in his army.

He couldn't understand how anybody could want to hurt something as beautiful as Cloud. With those blonde hair, which shone like a gold halo because of moonlight gleaming down on him, he seemed to be an angel. Or something very precious that Sephiroth felt the urge to protect no matter what.

Just now he realized he was still clutching the blanket in his hand. Loosening the grip caused it to fall down on the floor.

He wanted to touch the boy so badly. He needed to know if his skin was really as smooth as it looked. With outstretched fingers, he moved his hand closer, stopping the closest he could get without actually touching his cheek.

For a second, Sephiroth thought about what would he do, if Cloud woke up. But then he realized that he must be deadly tired after getting into that fight. Yeah, surely he won't wake up.

And so the silver haired man took a deep breath and carefully let his fingers linger on boy's face. When he was sure Cloud was still deeply sleeping, he dared to stroke and caress that soft skin. But that made him want to touch him more. And not just face.

'Ah, come one Sephiroth! You can't be molesting a kid who's sleeping in your bed. Mind the word – sleeping!'

He moved his hand away and let it rest on the bed's edge. '... I guess it wouldn't hurt to just look.'

And so he carefully pulled a blanket, that covered Cloud, lower. The blonde was shirtless so the older man could see those yet developing abs on younger's stomach. The soft moonlight and bruises that covered his body made Sephiroth shiver with want. He could already feel the hardness in his boxers. Damn, he was so lucky he wasn't wearing those tight leather pants. Wouldn't like to experience that feeling anytime soon.

His hands yearned to touch everything he could and couldn't see. He was dying to let his lips trail everywhere on that unbelievably sexy body. Maybe... he could steal just one quick kiss. That kid's lips looked just so inviting... he coudn't say no, could he?

He held his hair with one hand and leaned against the bed with the other, residing above Cloud's face for a while before closing his eyes and kissing him softly on the lips. For a while he almost thought he felt the boy respond, but the kiss was soon over and the blonde was still sleeping, so he brushed it of as a product of his imagination.

Without thinking he reached down, right into his own boxers, grabbed his hard erection firmly and started stroking it mind-absently. He only realized what he was doing when a gasp “Cloud!” escaped his lips. But he was too lost in lust to stop and just bit his lip, partly hoping the boy wouldn't wake up and party that he would. Leaning agains the wall, his legs getting tangled in the blanket he dropped earlier, he was watching Cloud with half-lidded eyes. More quiet gasps escaped his lips and he finally couldn't keep his eyes open. Letting them close, his back arched. He could feel he was reaching climax. Just mere seconds before he came, he moaned a silent “Cloud, I love you!”

His body went limp as he was trying to get his breath back. He wiped off his hand with the blanket. Then he froze.

'The fuck did I-! Did say I... love him? Where did that come from? I don't even know him properly, I-... Who am I fooling, I don't even know how does it feel to love somebody. I could be in love right now and I wouldn't know. But then again... I said it, didn't I?' Lost in his inner monologue, he didn't realize he started to mumble quietly, “But what matters the most is that I've jerked off looking at that poor boy! If he knew... he would so hate me. I gotta pull it together. I'm not supposted to feel attraction, let alone love. I'll just- ... who am I fooling , I can't just stop feeling what I feel. But Cloud wouldn't want me anyway, I guess I could wait until he's a bit older and then...”

Sephiroth sighed, stood up and took now dirty blanket, leaving to throw it into the washing machine. After washing his hands, he went to sit down on the couch, letting his head fall back and covering his face with his hands.

“What am I gonna tell Zack? How can I look into his eyes? Sorry, man, I wanted to molest Cloud you so entrusted me after he got beat up, so I just jerked off while watching him. Great way to lose friends, genius... I don't know what to do...!”

“S-sir?”

Sephiroth's head shot up. After seeing the blonde cadet standing in the doorway to the bedroom he quickly got on his feet. “C-Cloud! Um, h-how come you're not sleeping?” he asked, scratching back of his head nervously. 'What are you doing! Pull it together, you can smoothly get out of it without explaining anything! This is not like you!' he scolded himself in his mind. But it didn't help one a bit.

“Er, I've been awake for some time, actually.” Cloud answered, blushing slightly and lowering his gaze. Sephiroth's heart skipped a beat. Partly because the blonde looked so cute, when he did that, and partly because of what he said.

“What-whatever you heard, I didn't mean like that and I'm sorry!”

“So... you didn't mean it, when you said... you loved me?” Cloud asked, blushing even more. This situation wasn't easy for him either.

“I...” he knew he should say that he didn't, “I...” but those big blue eyes just kept him from lying, “I meant it.” he said, looking away from the boy. He could always just use sleep materia and act like none of it happened.. or something.

“I'm so glad! Because I feel the same. But I don't want to cause problems, so I'll understand if you won't be able to act on those feelings.” he had his hands hidden behind his back, but Sephiroth could clearly see, that the boy was very nervous, probably even emberrased. That made all the tension leave Sephiroth. This could work out. The boy's eyes shone with honesty, when he questionably looked up to meet Sephiroth's gaze.

The taller man acted without thinking, three long steps closed the distance between the two of them. They could feel each other's breaths on their faces. Then, both of them at the same time, they closed their eyes and Sephiroth leaned down to kiss the boy. He rested his right hand on the doorframe and his left dived into those gold-like hair, pulling the shorter one closer, who responded with embracing him strongly, not wanting to let go. The General was surprised how strong the boy's grip was. It made him wonder how could he lose the fight. He'd have to find out later, he thought as he dared to lick Cloud's lower lip, begging for entrance. Then he moved back a little, so he could see his face.

The lips parted ever so slightly and tip of the younger's toungue could be seen. It aroused Sephiroth so much that all he could see was black for a few seconds. We wondered, if the boy knew what he was doing to him. “Cloud, “ he whispered huskily, “I want you so much, but... I'm not sure what to do.” he said, untangling fingers from those spiky hair and softly caressing that soft cheek he touched earlier.

Cloud's arms moved up, to rest on Sephiroth's shouders. “I'm not sure what to do myself. It took all of my courage to come out out the bedroom. I think those painkillers were helping me with that too. I'm.. always so shy, you know?”

“Don't worry, Cloud. I find it pretty awkward to deal with people as well. Especially... when it comes to this. Well, it never came to this exactly. But.. you get the idea...”

Cloud suddenly gasped, “You mean, you've never? With anybody?” Sephiroth shook his head in response.

“You're the first one in my life to make me feel like this. Until now, I didn't know I was capable of it.”

“Who would tell you you weren't?! You're such a wonderful person! The army trusts you, because they know you care about them!”

“Cloud...” Sephiroth's gaze suddenly softened.

“Uwah, I'm sorry, I got carried away.” he quickly said, blushing deeply and lowering his gaze once again.

“No, I appreciate it.” the silver haired said and the blonde quickly looked up again, “I'm so happy that there's someone who sees me as a person. You got angry because somebody doesn't think about me as you. That means so much to me. I don't care what people think about me, as long as I know that there's someone who knows who I really am.”

“Sephiroth, sir, I mean...”

“You can call me however you want everytime you're here.” the taller man said, looking deeply in those bright blue eyes.

“Everytime? You mean...” Cloud lost his breath, leaving the sentence unfinished.

“Yeah, I would like to get you know better. We can do it somehow. That is, if you would like to do the same.”

“Of course I would!” he let out quickly, his whole face glowing with happiness.

Sephiroth smiled brightly and kissed Cloud lovingly. When they broke apart, breathing quickly, Cloud looked elsewhere and blushing said: “You know.. I'm still...”

That's when Sephiroth realized they were both still hard. “Me too.” he whispered in Cloud's ear, bringing their hips together, so they moaned simultaneously. “I want you so much, Cloud.” He took the boy in his arms, made his way to bedroom and put him down on the bed, kneeling above him. “You're so beautiful.” he said, rubbing their crotches together, kissing and licking the boy's neck and ears. Cloud was gasping, moaning and squirming underneath him, too overhelmed by the feeling.

“Seph-! Ahh!” the boy's back arched and he grabbed on linens desperately. They Sephiroth got an idea. He pulled his and Cloud's boxers down a little, discarting Cloud's pants completely at the same time, so that their erections were touching directly. Both had to brace themeselves, because that feeling has nearly brought them over the edge.

“I- wanted... this.. for... so.. long!” Cloud managed to say between gasps.

“Then I should make up to you.” Sephiroth whispered, breath quickened and his heart beating rapidly. His hand moved downwards, grabbing both of their manhoods, pumping them at the same time. After a few strokes they both came, Sephiroth first, Cloud a second after him.

The taller man let himself fall on the bed next to Cloud, lying in his side so he could watch him, both trying to catch their breaths.

“Your shirt got dirty.” Cloud poited out.

“Too bad.” Sephiroth said, undressing it and using it to clean both of them, adjusting their underwear meanwhile. Then he threw the dirty shirt on the floor. Cloud yawned. “We should probably go to sleep.”he said when he realized the sun was already rising. They were lucky it was weekend.

“Yeah.” Cloud agreed, snuggling closer to Sephiroth, smiling softly. The silver haired smiled as well, and embraced the boy. “Sleep well, Cloud.”

“Mm, you too, Seph.” and with that they fell asleep, lying almost naked in the same bed.