Hopes Despair

Just want to state 'I don't own FF7 or any characters, nor do I think they do this sort of stuff in public'

Thanks to all whom have commented me, it really has egged me on to continue and sorry for the lack of update

Chapter 10

I laid watching the flames flicker, resting my head on Tseng thigh. He sat admiring me as he gently ran his fingers through my now short jet black hair. “You don’t look to bad with short black hair Reno, it looks more professional”
“So you’re trying to say that you are more in love with me because I got black hair”
“Yes that is exactly what I meant” stoic as ever “You look more … you’re still adorable” a warm smile crossed his face as he leaned down and kissed my forehead. “You’re still … I love you as much as I did and more now” he traced along my jaw line “That you have made a huge sacrifice” he tilted my head so I could see his face. There upon that beautiful face was a look of happiness and admiration, I gave him a warm smile in return.
“Tseng”
“Yes Reno”
“I’ve been wondering…have you ever?” I stumbled for words “I mean have you?”
“What is it Reno?”
“You’ve had plenty of opportunity to … why haven’t you tried to have … um have sex with me?” I could feel my face begin to redden “I’m not trying to say that’s all I think about” I covered quickly
Tseng placed a finger over my mouth to hush me up, and I was glad as I didn’t want to make more of a fool of myself.
“I haven’t done anything because I don’t really know if I can” he looked solemn “I want to but I don’t know if it’s the right thing to be doing considering the situation we are in” he traced my jaw line again as he stared into my eyes. “If the situation was different I’m still not sure if I could do it” he directed his attention to the open fire that flickered behind me “I’m still your superior Reno. It wouldn’t be right of me to have a relationship with one of my subordinate”
My heart sank as he said the word ‘subordinate’ there it was the one thing that kept us apart ‘he was my boss’ and always would be. I looked over his shoulder hoping that someone would break up the awkward situation that was forming. “Tseng there doesn’t have to be any …” I searched for the words desperately to convey how I felt “We can still have a professional relationship” we both knew that was a lie, but I had to try something.
“Reno you know that can never be, even if we both wanted it” stoically
I could feel my heart start to palpitate at the mere sounds of rejection I did the only thing that came to mind to show how I truly felt. I leant forward taking hold of Tsengs shirt and pulled him into a deep kiss, I could feel him exhale in surprise as I began to massage his tongue. I could feel Tseng hand raise up sliding quickly across my back as he attempted to break my hold upon him. I jutted slightly but refused to let go of my hold on his shirt, he tried sliding his arm up in between us to push me away. But determined to not let him go I bite his lower lip as hard as I could to show I was not going to be pushed away easily. He let out a cry of pain as I could feel blood begin to seep into his mouth I had put a little too much pressure into my bite. I finally released my hold to gather my breath blood was dribbling down Tsengs chin as a look of both anger and shock crept across his face. He raise a hand to wipe away the blood dribbling from he open lip, I definitely had put a lot of pressure as I realised that I had ripped his lip open.
“Tseng” I stammered “Shit I didn’t mean to…” I was cut with the sound of my jaw cracking I fell backward as Tseng stood over me rubbing his fist. “Reno you stupid bastard” I could here venom in his voice “What did you think you were doing?” with each sentence a slight spray off blood came from his mouth.
“I’m sorry” I felt a hard foot crash into my ribs winding me “I wasn’t thinking” I sputtered as I tried to gather my breath.
Tseng knelt down “Of course you weren’t” he grabbed my shirt pulling me to eye level “You stupid …” he raised his fist to strike me again, I stared into his eyes with panic and fear “Why did you do that?” his eyes softened as his fist became an open palm “We can’t Reno” he caressed the side of my face, rubbing gently over the bruise which I’m sure was forming. I stared at him as the blood continued to dribble down his chin I began to notice that I could also taste blood, I rubbed my mouth as I realised that I had bitten my tongue when Tseng had hit me. He let go of my shirt letting me fall to the floor as he stood watching my lifeless body lying in pain on the floor. “Are you ok Reno?” he walked over to the fireplace and grabbed two napkins from the tray using one to mop up his blood and placing ice in the other. He stood looking at the his napkin for a moment before coming back over to place the ice pack he’d made on the side of my face “Hold this on your face if you don’t want to have a large bruise” I did as I ordered holding the ice pack to my face, I had forgotten how powerful Tseng actually was when placed in situation of desperation or when an idiot bite his lip off. Tseng knelt down in front of me studying me for a moment before lifting up my shirt to reveal a nice foot imprinted bruise on my chest, he smile slightly “I forgot how powerful I could be” he let my shirt fall as he took hold of my chin. “Looks like dinner is ruined” he mused stoically as he lifted me up off the floor and carried me off.