Cold Wind

Here we go with the next installment! If you can't tell I am posting this as I go along. No sex in this chapter sorry ^^;;; I don't know if this is going to follow the timeline of the movie or not...I think maybe I'll have it veer off in the next chapter. If I don't it'd be less and less character development and more rehashing what went on in the movie.

Regular disclaimers apply. Kadaj, Yazoo, Loz and the FF7 universe belong to SquareEnix (Anyone else remember when they were Squaresoft?)

Please Enjoy.

Chapter 3

Yazoo’s POV

I look at you unbelievingly. My mouth is open, completely flabbergasted at you though inside I am smiling at the sweet smile on your face. I still can’t believe this.

“THIS is where it was so important for us to stop on our way to Midgar? We had to stop and see some overgrown chickens?”

You look over at me and pout like a petulant child. Normally I would say absolutely nothing to anything you wanted to do, but this just took the cake. You had woken up excited and prodded both Loz and I out of bed disgustingly early with an almost manic smile.

“Come on! I have something to show you!”

You were giddy and kept giggling to yourself as we rode, and then we came here. The chocobo farm. I stopped and stared as you got off your bike and you and Loz hurried to talk to the birds. They really were elegant but wasn’t the point. My mouth just fell open. How did this have anything at all to do with finding Mother? It was so important for us to go and quickly to find her. We had no time for things like this.

I snap back into the present as I see your frown and sneer, looking down your nose at me. I absolutely hate it when you look at me like that.

“They’re not chickens Yazoo. They’re chocobos”

Loz laughs lightly and I frown at him. He immediately shuts up ad looks back at the chocobo he is petting.
I watch as you move away from your chocobo and come towards me.

Na Yazoo…I thought you knew the difference.”

“I do Kadaj.”

“Then why would you call them that?”

Your eyes are catty, you are toying with me, trying to embarrass me, make me stand down. I don’t like this cruelty that has grown in you. Before you would answer me and not play these games. You never took so much pleasure in making me look stupid before.

“Because I don’t see any reason in why we are here when we should be in Midgar. We could be there right now looking for Mother but we are here. I don’t understand”

I watch you brush off my answer with a wave of your hand and a smirk.

“Yazoo…you’re no fun…”

My lips tighten in annoyance and my voice raises a bit unconsciously.

“You didn’t answer me Kadaj.”

“Yazoo. Are you questioning me?”

“Yes I am Kadaj. I know you are our leader but I don’t understand why we have to indulge your childish whims!”

I find myself yelling before I can even think about it, too late to back out of this now. I can’t deal with the look of confusion and hurt on your face. I’ve never raised my voice to you like this, ever. Rather than face you I turn away and start to go back to my bike, not even paying attention to whether you were following or not, my heart pounding in my ears.

Kadaj’s POV

How could you yell at me like that? I am confused more than anything, grasping for answers in my mind but when none come I find myself floundering. I only wanted a distraction, something to bring your mind away from our task. You had seemed so disconnected as of late. I look back at Loz for a moment. Our bigger brother is petting a chocobo gently and basically pretending he doesn’t exist. For as big as he is he’s good at that. I then turn back to see you out the door already and I follow you fearful that you will leave.

“Yazoo! Wait….”

I stop as you stop, but you don’t turn towards me. I can almost feel your frustration and knowing that I am the cause of it hurts me. Normally I would not show anything like sadness, but every now and again, like now, my emotions swell inside of me uncontrollable. I can hear and feel my own voice becoming choked with tears. I have to fight to control them.

*Don’t walk away from me….”

Yazoo’s POV

My head lifts at the sound of your voice. You sound so pained. I just want to go to you and hold you and soothe your hurt away like I did when this first started and you were hardly more than a child, I was barely more than one myself . It’s been so long from then. My heart holds a fear of you now, of your power, but it is the longing to comfort you, give you the things you really need that keep me with you. After a moment’s thought I turn around to face you. Your teeth are clenched and your eyebrow is furrowed, fighting these emotions that you feel make you weak.

“I’m sorry Kadaj.”

You seem to throw off your sadness and look up at me calmly.

“I only thought this would be a good distraction…forgive me Brother.”

I inwardly wince at the title. So formal now…even with me. It will take a while to regain your trust now I suppose, but I am used to this. Setting you off, making you angry and having to rebuild the structures between us.

“No. I was being foolish…I should have known that you had your reasons. I am just anxious that something will happen to Mother before we can get to her.”

I sigh lightly, defeated once again by you even though no blows have been dealt. I smile lightly at you before speaking.

“Come on. Let’s go back in.”

As I walk past you grab my arm gently. I stop surprised and look down at you and you slowly look back up to me. You look serious but there is something else I can’t quite place.

“No…you’re right. We do need to go. I’ll go get Loz.

I choke out a response past my utter surprise. “OK. I’ll be on my bike.” You admitting when you are wrong? Miracles do happen. You had seemed sad and contemplative but you were completely over it now, your raw emotions hidden behind your mask of maniacal glee that you gave the world. I go back to the bikes and climb onto mine almost affectionately. When I look up you have Loz in tow, the big man grumbling about having to leave so soon.

“Na Loz! Maybe after we get Mother, Brother will let you have one?”

I am taunting him. I expect for you to laugh it off and say of course not, joining in my tease. But it seems you are not in the mood. You simply shrug noncommittally and smirk before hopping on your bike. You wait for Loz to mount before kicking off and we follow you, heading towards Mother, Midgar and our destiny.

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Ack...that one was sort of short too. I had to absolutely slog through it and it didn't go quite as planned. I am having a hard time portraying Kadaj as unbalanced and not weak or completely off his rocker. What do you guys think?