Zell's Sudden Realization

Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 8 or any of the characters, places, etc. within.
With that said, I will continue.

I took a bit of liberty wih the characters. I hope you enjoy all the same.

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-Chapter One.


I had sucked a man's dick. What the hell is wrong with me? I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling. I have a girlfriend. I have a good position in SeeD. I am straight... or so I think.

The memory of how he thrashed before me made me hard. I shuddered as I remembered how his hands tugged at my hair and how his lips had formed my name. He had wondered aloud how I could be so good at this after I had finished swallowing his slightly bittersweet fluid. I had been just as curious as him.

I like sex, I honestly do. I just can't seem to perform well for Liza, my girlfriend, which completely pisses her off. She's threatened to leave me because of it, which doesn't really bother me. She enjoys my money too much. Aside from my rather excellent rank, I also teach multiple self-defense classes to women in Balamb and teach a martial arts class in Garden. I'm well off, not rich, but well off. I have to remind Liza of this sometimes.

Anyway, back to dick sucking. It had started out so naturally, both of us sitting in his office, looking at weapons online. It was a liitle bit out-of-character for him, but I had found an awesome gunblade in a magazine and just HAD to show it to Squall. We were drinking a little bit. It was late.

Then I saw a strange website in his favorites. What the hell was this "Boys" site? I was so damn stupid.

As a side note, I really don't like porn. It's fake to me. So I really don't know the lingo.

Anyway, I clicked on it and found a whole page of guys sucking guys off. I looked at Squall, who looked somewhere between horrified and curious. I expected my neck to be snapped, but it wasn't. i just continued to stare at the screen, finding myself getting harder and harder as time when on. I looked at Squall's crotch out of the corner of my eye and found he was hard, too.

I don't know how it happened, but suddenly I was on my knees, giving worship to Squall's beautiful (when did I start thinking of men's body parts as beautiful?) dick. I tried really hard to please him and had suceeded. Afterwards, we stared at eachother for a long while and quietly swore ourselves to secrecy.

I left the room after cracking a few nervous jokes, leaving like nothing had happened. Squall also acted like nothing had happened.

So here I am now, laying in my bed as Liza comes in. She tries to get me in the mood, but I can't even get the poor guy up. I can't even fake I'm enjoying anything she tries. I guess my little man is in shock from the realizations I've come to today.

I may be blonde, but I'm not stupid. I've always found men attractive. I like their flat, chisled bellies and their hard chests. I like their long legs and muscled arms. I always want to kiss their backs and follow the line down their spine with my tongue.

I found myself getting hard and shot up, knocking foreheads with Liza, who was sitting on my legs, trying to give me a hand job. "I'm freaking gay!"

Oh god. I'm blonde AND stupid.